~Sweet ScOrpiOn DungeOn~

2009-06-14T16:09:00.002+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow...
You may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out..
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit!
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

AND FOR THAT I SHALL NOT QUIT!
PROBLEMS, SITUATIONS ARE ONLY OPPORTUNITIES
WITH THORNS ON THEM,
UNTIL I FAIL TO MAKE THE
TURN ON A BENDED ROAD,
I THEN SHALL JUSTIFY THAT'S THE END OF MY ROAD.

May Allah swt hear my resilient, silence and every prayers,
Insya Allah~

2009-05-11T21:42:00.007+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Reader,

It's been almost close to a year now since my last entry! Whatever had happpen.. Well I guess too many i should say! When 2008 marks it's end and 2009 came by, I should say for the past 10 months or so, to many good, bad, happy and sad things had happen. But with all those short comings and joy, all teaches me something so valuable and vulnerable.

What made me decide to blog today is simply because at this present moment, I'm still stucked in the office and I had some time to spare for myself. And mind you, this opportunity doesn't come often infact rarely! So i'm just taking this time out to think and reminise.

Late last year, I concluded and made up my mind to diss-ed a friend in which i'm so freaking proud of myself for doing so. If u guys might wonder who and why i did that, I guess I'm sick and tired already of that idiot's issue, thus i let it ALL go... To love is to let go as some had told me before, but i'm letting him go because there's no more love to spare. I concluded, I ended, I gave up and I'm a happier me now. Praises to Allah for giving me the courage and strength to do so. Does it hurt? I'll be lying if i say it didn't, but again, this is only for the better of me, him and everyone elses. It does get outta hand at some point of this mess, it does made me go head over heels, and a bad rage of anger strucked badly on me while dealing with it! But it all ended with prayers coz i'm just glad it's all over. I leave it up to HIM for all the trials and tribulations. Next I also severe my friendship with my 'so call gurlfren'. Why?! Again, it was a yesterday's topic and to rake up means it's a never ending cork & bull story! Well guys, if you have a friend, would you in any right state of mind do or say anything to hurt your other gurlfrens? And to make matter worst, you bitched about your 'friend' amongst the same strong click? Do u think this remedy work? Have you ever consider the consequences behind all those back bitting bitching? So I guess YOU, me and ALL of us learn something so vulnerable now aite... Never do this to a friend that loves and care for your as truly as they can be coz it will end up making you hurt yourself more. And free yourself from any jealousy or anxiety coz that's a spread for devil to dish in. I'm sorry, you guys are all history. I thank you guys both coz you teach me the whole new meaning of friendship.

2009 didn't make a great spectacular entrance. In the early part of 2009, I've lost my beloved uncle. He's one of the many uncles that had contributed in my life's upbringing. He's one of the uncle(s) that stood by me and my family! What i'll always remember about my late Uncle Rahman was his endless jokes and his free-spirited self that makes us very comfortable with him. I thanked the Almighty for granting me an opportunity to contribute some deeds before he passed on. I've always wish I could do more to help but I guess my time was limited to just that. ONLY that infact.

A month later, me and my whole entire family was all busy getting ready to go for our much awaited family holiday. Dad wanted us to go holidays together as this will be his last free flight benefits given by his company for him, mummy & lil triplets. As for me and my brother's family, our flight fare was fully paid by dad! Thank you Papa & Mummy! Amidst this happiness, we felt a slight sober as we've just lost our dear uncle and my deart aunt was also critically ill. The day before we left, we spent the entire day at her place, her fully renovated home which was why she was eager to be at her new home. Mom was sceptical about this trip as she was worried for my aunt, but she and dad sacrifices all this for the sake of their children. (I'm getting all tear up as i'm typing this down! gosh!)

The very day we landed in Swiss, after a phone call to my aunt, about an hour later, we've received another phonecall from our uncle that she's passed on. God knows how we felt upon hearing the news. Mum was the most affected, dad trying to stay calm but i guess all of us just broke down when we gather to pray and recites prayers to the deceased. As much as my parents wanting to get back home, again, they stayed for the sake of their children and their beloved grand daughter. Also because, my bro had already checked for the next flight out from Zurich to SG, it was the following day afternoon and by the time they got back, it will be in 2 days later. We continue our holidays with tears, smile and laughter. Sweet memories. Sad memories. Everything. I'm definately going to miss my late Aunt J too. She was a lady that i've always look up too and she was a lady that i've always envy. Her love and dedication towards her family was endless and thou she's no longer alive, her spirit and practices will continue, inysa allah. I miss you Aunt J.

While I was in Paris, besties texted me informing me that my dear friend and a trusted brother met with a bad accident while on track race and the following day, besties & some friends texted me to say that he's passed on too. If I could pen down the feeling, I would, but i was just speechless. My heart not only sank, it sunk real bad that it just stop beating for a moment. I miss my dear pal Feroz. I miss his zanny-ness. So the moment we touched down, went back home to wash up and left the luggage, we straight away went to visit my late aunt, uncle and fren's grave. As someone who's born with faith despite having so much flaws and all, i guess the only thing i could do now is to keep all of them close to my every prayers and their spirit will always stay alive in me. Amin..

With all that also, this year is a year full of blessing and I can only thanked Allah swt, my family and closest friends for their endless love, trust, support and motivation. I am smiling for who I am today. I shed tear coz I was one step closer than I was yesterday. Syukur Alhamdulillah. My only hope for now is to make my parents happy and to give them as much as I could as it's high time that I anchor the ship.. Insya Allah... Ya Allah, Grant me the strength and the facilities to accommodate to my parent's, my own and family's needs. Grant me the wisdom that you've always instilled, Grant me the time for me to lead and re-pay back all kindness to all human beings especially my parents, Grant me the best of health and wealth that you've forsee, Lead me to the pillars of well being, Lead me to the path you've preceded for me, Lead me, my family and my friends to a journey where only you can see, Bless me with sanity, Bless me unconditional love, Bless me with a heart of sincerity and free from hypocrisy and anxiety, Bless me with good future and trust worthy friends that could mould our future together and Bless all my friends with the sincerest health & wealth for them and their families. Amin Ya Rabbal Allamin~

Mummy & papa; I Love you with every beat of my heart.

Brother, Sister In Law, Lil Sisters and Lil DQ; I Love you coz I've got no other.

Families and Friends; I Love You More than you know it too.

Till my next blog, take care guys! *muacks*

2008-11-17T13:41:00.002+08:00

*Peace be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

It's Monday yet again and gosh... What was I thinking early this morning?! I got up from bed and realized that it's 10mins to 7am! Rush to the toilet... Grab my attire and suddenly i was dead struck! I've forgotten that I did NOT prepare my tops the night before which i was supposed to, instead I went to do my nails and totally forgot about it... Goodness! Thus I grab a blue top, iron them and off to my room, grab my bag and off to werk!

I reached office like 5mins before 8am, didn't have time to do my coffee, start my PC, emails, and wahhlahhh.... A WHOLE LOAD OF THINGS TO CLEAR! I shouldn't have worn BLUE! It's kindda like a jinx! Hahaha! Anyhoe, whatever colors i'll be wearing, this place is still a TOTAL MADNESS! Brain freeze is no longer an unknown factor! Migraine pills are like candy to me! Hahaha!

My right eye lid has been twitching since morning! I am not particularly a believer for those eye twitching myths but I do pray that it's nothing but a good sign coming along my way... Anyway, I hope that more good things are coming up day by day! Insya Allah.

I'm practically smiling right now coz I have family and friends love and bless.
I'm practically crying deep within coz sometimes I felt like i'm a lost soul, losing my phrases.
I'm practically laughing coz the moments are felt with jokes & unforseen circumstances.
I'm practically chillin' coz i know there's more dramas to come and i'm game for it.
And I'm practically being quiet off late, coz I couldn't be bothered less.

Well, some might say that I may be a confused child for now! But again, I'm the author for my life's journey. I need no illustrators to complete my life's dictionary! Thank You.

Till den, I LOVE YOU!

2008-11-14T23:43:00.005+08:00

*Peace be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Oh yeah!! I know that it's been awhile again since my last post! Thanks to some friends whom has constantly reminded me to update my blog or if not just remove it away! hahahah! *frens you know who you are*

Wats been happening lately? Too MUCH to talk about yet to handle?!

My emotion turmoils begun again and again! Just when I thought it has vanished into thin air, it wasn't merely eluded! And i can never say enuff of "thank yous" to my Gorg and my dearest fren Eqah for constantly giving me thier words of wisdom, encouragement for me to move on and not forgetting those trashing more often! Especially Eqah! *Bluekk* Hahahahaha~

*a lil bit about Eqah here;*

**Eqah: The extrasensory chum of mine**

(Psst: No choice gotta grab this (read: muka budak baik look!) pic lor, coz u never post our pics @ ur home!Anw, to think of it, we must start cam-whoring ah babe! It's about time! Hahahah!)

Well, I know this lady back since 1999, a very hard headed gal to handle by many men (even ladies!) i should say!! She's no ordinary easy piece of meat to handle mind you! hahahahaha... Very well known for her stuborness and her deadly bluntness! But since age is catching up on US (read: US ok!), and with every lesson learnt as we walk thru this path called LIFE, she's out grown & out shine to be a wiser lady and more demure lately (ehem²!).. And I'm just happy that she's settling down soon too! Congrats babe!!! So babe, pray for me that you'll hear similar news from me soon huh!! Anw, there's ups and downs in our friendship, but i guess god is just fair when it comes to trust and true friendship! We mite not talk on the phone for hours (read: better not, if we do, its non stop eh! ahaha) or we might not even meet up that frequent, but i know she's always there for me and like wat they always say, she's just a phone call away! I love you la babe! Btw, the meet up with you that day at your crib was super SHORT ok! I wish I could stay longer but no choice, gotta werk the next day! And heck yeah, that dude was a weirdo but nice chap afterall huh?! Has he overcome his depression??! HEHEHEHE!!

P.S: Ohh yeahhh!! Let's meet up soon ok!! Exchanging gifts session as suggested by Nani.. Heheheh! Thank you for your thoughtfulness in doing up your wish list! If not pening ok kepala aku!!Hahaha~

Next on track, a big thank you to Gorg for also listening to my 'sorrows'! HAHHAHAAHAHAH!
Well babe, you know what, I guess I just have to let time to lead me the way. And i shall constantly have you and eqah and some others around me to keep me sane and grounded yeah! Fyi people, like Eqah who's just a phone call away, she's just a doorstep away from me! ahahah! I'm blessed to have her as my besties and I love her like my capillaries! I so can't wait for the 'retreat' session and the family affairs thats definately gonna happen! Let's get those eyes rollin' coz we're gonna have a rollin' gud time aitte!

*Gorg: Moi BIG TYME clairvoyant babe*

To the rest of my true-blue FRIENDS, BUDDIES & Acquaintances;
P.S: I LOVE YOU TOO! :)

Well something just pops up in my head lately. Well we've seen so much dramas in our lives and definately this includes with your pals and buddies right? Have you heard of the terms "seasonal friends"??! I'M DISTINCTLY SURE YOU DO!! *lol*

Right people, since it's my blog and I write what I want and how I want it to sound like so I dun need your comments at all on this! Pls! Shhhooooosssshhhh.... *Go away you pest!* Just a penny for your thoughts as i'm now in deep thoughts too... :)

ISSUES:

- One that calls themselves a "FRIEND" but goes about with lots of Hyprocricies amongst the group of friends they had? What do we call them?

- One that often say they are part of us but to the actual fact they are just lingering around us, what do we name them?

- One that often gets affected over trival matters but shut the F up over huge matter just to save their sore face, what do we call them?

- One that always thinks they are right and never admits that we humans are imperfect, what do we call them?

- One that takes us for a ride but tells us they LOVE us, what do we call and do to them?

- One that wants to be 'accepted' by a different groups/clans of friends, yet they don't even know how to behave themselves, what should call them?

- One that can never see other friends excel and fly high in their lifes, knowing their own capabilities are no where to be compared to the rest, what do we call them?

- One that pretend and I mean constantly pretending that they are a worthy friend to be kept and invested but at the end of the day, with god's will, it proves that they are vice versa, what do we call them?

... And there are many more breeds of friends that are available in this earth but I just can't type it down! So let's just ponder on this....

Here's to some 'friends' that I felt sorry for:-

Firstly, excuse moi blunt-ness that may cause you blunder here, being an average gal with lots of incapabilities in me, I felt that I still deserve the right to choose my friend. As much as I don't pray for your mishaps, I hope that with the blessings from the man above, i'm sure he'll show and lead you to the correct path and the true friends that you've had! As age is catching up on me (read: i'm speaking for MY OWN self here! NOT on behalf of anyone elses~), I'm just contented with the number of TRUE FRIENDS I've had till today. I'm grateful to have been BLESSED with a BEST FRIEND, A GOOD OL' FRIENDS, A CHILDHOOD FRIENDS, A SCHOOLMATES THAT I'M PROUD TO CALL FRIENDS, A FAMILY THAT CAN BE A FRIEND AND A FRIEND THAT I CAN COUNT ON THRU MY HAPPINESS AND SORROW! To have or not to have YOU few individuals around me make no diff, seriously! Thou there be many a times when a sudden miss is felt, I guess the best I could offer is a prayers to you individuals. Save your energy to something better and focus on what's more that's happening in your lives right now. I'm sure you do have errands to run, responsibilities to uphold and work to be completed right? Rather than playing your cards well just to fit into other's itinerary! For all you know they too BITCH about you. Oh btw, did I ever mention to you individuals that I'm A BIG ENORMOUS INDIVIDUAL WITH LOTS OF ODDS AND CHARISMA? AND I'M RESPONSIBLE FOR MY OWN ACTIONS?! I bet i did! So I dun need your two cents worth of thoughts or advise, save it! I'm proud coz i'm being loved for being who I am... And I dun even felt a single a-miss for not fitting into your itinerary coz I've got too many to keep up with. Sorry!
Fyi, 'he' is just a friend for now, so please rest assure and have faith that I have beautiful souls around me to keep me grounded! Thus, I DON'T NEED YOUR EMPATHY, thank you for your concern but it doesn't nibble an inch. Even if shit were to happen again, I admit the VICTORY coz I've earned an HONOUREE!

Alrighty.... I dedicate this entire post to people that call themselves F.R.I.E.N.D.S!!
If you are a TRUE one, give your self a flying kiss for excelling with flying colours. may GOD bestow you with the best of health, wealth, sanity and spirits always, insya-allah, amin~
If you are the ODD ones out, get yourself a life will you?! May GOD showers you with much of his blessings aittes... And read this below... I've sum it up all for your easy reference. HAHAHA!

With all that rants, I should just end my entry now... May you be blessed by the Almighty always and stay safe, contented and grateful with whatever you have right now. God Bless cha~

2008-09-20T11:56:00.003+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

It's the 20th day of Ramadhan and tommorrow is mummy's birthday too.. Happy Birthday Mummy & I LOVE YOU... I REALLY DO... :)

Well, speaking of which, it's Ayie's Birthday too.. So happy birthday darlz... I see ya ard too aitte...

Besides some re-vamp of hairstyle and slogging my tooottt of at werk, i guess everything is still the same thou.. I am ready for Aidilfitri. made a few kindda kuihs, bought a bag that cost me a fortune, bought some raya stuffs for home and my own... Well im having mixed feeling of this year's Eid but I guess with all those geez splurged, im have to look forward to it huh?!..

I need to meet some frens whom i've longed and missed too.. Seriously, during this time of the month that i felt im missing more and more people (plus loving more and more people too! *grin*)... Ladies & gentleman, you know who you are, so please hang on... I'll meet up with you soon. Oh yeah, Eqah, if u are reading this.. you are on the top priority lists aittes and I MISS YOU LIKE S*** sehhh... Especially when u managed to manipulate me thinking that 'dat guy' had a sex change.. That was like a JOKE of THE YEAR k! ahahahahah!! *how silly of me*

Yesterday, despite me being very tired and surviving on sleepless nites, got held up in the office and all the work loads, i squeeze some time to meet up with a wacko + laid back + great companies breeds.. Of course, my big tyme psychic accompanied us too.. Even she had a great nite with the bunch.. And seriously, I fell in love with Adik's voice.. (we went for a karaoke dat's it!) My goodness... Even the gals agree with me! Honestly, when Mira and Adik sang some "old skool classics" songs, i had flashbacks. This is something i wish i didn't had at that point of time, something i refrain from having to make me reminise on some 'unfaithful' pasts.. But damn, i can't help it! Shit! So i got myself distracted by being the KJ for the night and getting Adik to sing more of my all time favourite old skol ballads. Hahahaha!! We had FUN & SHE's GONE(read: gone-case.. hahahhah)!!!! We had a great nite! I was TIRED (i wonder when would I ever stop complaining!!) But... by the time i reach home, shower, jump into bed... Tttaaddaaaa : Time Check: 2am. And the stressing part is I can't sleep and i need to werk @ 8.30am the very morning! Oh god... What happen?!! Ya Allah... help me ease this misery! It's all coming back to me again now.. I thought I was doing alright, but it's just getting to me again.. After getting a text from Adik, i tried so hard to sleep that I realised that I had been tossing and turning for the past 2hrs which is just in time to have sahur so.., had sahur... and off to bed.. thats where i hit the sack! I got an hour of sleep before getting ready for werk! Pathetic!

And now, being sleepy in the office, i decided to pen down my chants & rants! Hahaha!

Alright, i'll catch up again when i have the time aittes. Meanwhile, all the best for the rest of ramadhan, and be good aittes guys!! Muacks... :)

2008-08-15T13:16:00.002+08:00

*Peace be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

The turmoils of what's thumping in me now... I hated to be in this condition, but I guess I just have to wait till my energy run dry...
Oh Allah, bless me with some serenity at least for now coz i'm just as clueless as you'll see in a child...

"..:: Rihanna - Cry ::.."

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cuz I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life.....

2008-07-31T03:26:00.002+08:00

* Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

It's like almost 3.30am right now and i just can't sleep!! Help...!!! I'm off to work in a couple of hours and yet I am still unable to sleep. Oh Allah, please hear my silent resilient prayers. I just dun know why but gosh, it's not like i've been sleeping the whole day. I was practically up @ 11am and was just chilling around till later part in the evening, went to my new home and prepare some necessity for the prayers session held...

Right now, my parents and my 2 other lil sisters are at our new crib, while me and the 3rd of the triplets is @ home. She is fast asleep while her sister is just getting paranoid now for not being able to sleep... Shrucks! Mummy have been asking me to sleep over at my new crib, but i was a lil reluctant as I have gotta werk tommorrow and I AM NOT MENTALLY prepared! Haha...

I think I am missing so many things now... I'm missing my old home the most! And of late, after publishing the previous post, I got strange calls AGAIN! Been keeping it to myself coz I wont want my besties and best of frens to get worried, but shit, i just can't prolong it any longer... The idea of changing my mobile number has been lingering in my head for SO DAMN FREAKING god knows how long, but everytime when I got the urge of doing it, i decided not to pursue. U know right, how tedious is the process of letting your whole contacts know of ur new no? And later on it just ends up sumhow that the people u have been avoiding managed to get hold of ur no and its back to square one?! I rather find it childish to do that, but sometimes, only god know how frustrated i could get and this pisses me off! Help!

Well peeps... Pray for me that my 'emotional' turbulence period will somehow vanished aittes.. Till my next blog, to those whom I had no chance to say I LOVE YOU GUYS, EACH & INDIVIDUALS ALOT, I am saying this right now... Muacks...

2008-07-24T22:38:00.010+08:00

*Peace be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Ooh myyy~~ Please excuse and pardon me for not updating my blog for months... Infact, half a year has gone by since my last entry!! Girlfriends has already been nagging me to update my blog, but i still fail to find the time to do it! Lame excuse thou, but that's the best I could give.. Hahaha!!

So where do I start now? Let me go by phases.... So to those whom are anticipating & eagerly wanting to read up my blog, you've gotta bear with me coz this will be a lengthy entry... After all, it's half a year's itinerary that i'm updating you.. hhhmmpphhh~~

First Up: I left my previous co in late Feb as the department was down-sizing. It was so sad thou but life has to go on no matter what right? I love the workplace, I miss the sofa, the TV, the whole walking around the office barefooted, the huffy's at my own desk, my bosses (read: they were the nicest boss ever!!! And I meant it..!) But like wat they say, all good things must come to an end sooner or later, but mine was pretty much that soon.. Hehehehe...

Second: It was a bitter goodbye to my home @ Stratford Court... How I wish we could stay there like forever... But dad has his own plans, and he did all these (again) for the sake of his own children and for the benefit of the whole family. Initially I was super affected by the whole process, but I have come into terms with my own self that indeed, it was the right time to let go of the house since dad managed to get a good catch and seal the deal & it was time for my dad to have his retirement.. I won't want to see my dad slogging till his last breathe for sure and so... For almost 2 months staying at home, I wasn't practically bumming around ok, mind you!, but instead, I was helping my mummy & daddy thru out the whole process of shifting.... On April 27th, we bid farewell to our dear home @ Bedok Ria.

Third: The next good thing happen, I got a job that starts immediately after we bid goodbye to our home. While on the process of getting a flat back (which was so mah-fan!!), my family stayed @ my uncle's place @ Hougang... We were just blessed to have a family that always readily lending a helping hand! (Alhamdulillah!) In a way, my activities was quite restricted but i didn't mind a single bit at all.. Good enuff we've got a shelter! And like finally, we clinch a deal for a re-sale flat @ Tampines.. Syukur! I've always wanted to get a new flat, but with the ridiculous laws and regulations (read: which i sumtimes dun understand why such regulations are imposed & that when you sold a private property, u can't purchase a new flat, WTH!!) Afterall, be it new, old or re-sale, we still have to pay up right? Goshh.... Alrite, i think i shall not get 'politically' involved here.. haha! Another farewell to our Old Matrix car, now we've got an Allion for the family's ride... A RED HOT sizzling one.. Hehehe! (Well, i shall now declare a win-win situation!! )

Forth: My new job was great (read:Initially i thought!! hahaha!)... But well, i think i am now in the same boat with my other dear couzins.. We're werking and staying intact because of the pay, not because we enjoy thou.. Lolz!! Well, i mean, this has always been my scope of work and forthe'.. i've got great team mates and their spirit never run dry, but as usual, anywhere you go, the few bad eggs can actually spoil the whole reputation thou.. but anyhow... I shall not complain further for now.... They are still great chaps thou! Nice individuals... One BIG HAPPY FAMILY with some thorns in between.. lolz..!

Fifth: The busy preparation and planning for my beloved couzin's Big Day begun... I was tight down with werk and I tried to squeeze in as much time as possible to assists her in her preparation. At the same time, my house has already begun thier renovation process. I simply just can't wait to get this over.. As they say, no matter how small, huge, beautiful or ugly your home may look like, at the end of the day, nuthing beats the feeling of calling it your "own" crib... Right onot peeps?? At this moment, I was on the verge of breaking down, or heck, i need to break loose.. (Undescribed emotions!!!) I am soooo~ (let me repeat SOOOO~~!) damn tired. Physically and mentally exhausted and emotionally a lil disturbed! Ahakz! T.I.R.E.D is the best word to describe it i guess.. pheww~ Not easy having to accommodate to everyone's need aittes... Now I need a MAN to accommodate to mine... Anyone??? Hehehehehe...

Sixth: Dear couz Alin got married at last... her majlis went super fine and alhamduliilah, they are now 'legal' for each other. I was affected coz she's always been with me thru thick and thin and thru any forms or shape i could be in.. She's just there to help and hear me out.. But now, being married doesn't mean it's the end to our bond, but well, I guess we're pretty much restricted with activities these coming days ahead... Gosh.. I tried SO DAMN FREAKING HARD not to be so obvious to show my emotions, but the moment they angkat nikah, tears are just dwelling (Mira too.. coz we were all sticking hard just like glue always!! hehe..) But the moment when we bid goodnite after the whole wedding thingy, we were just on each other arms crying like no body's business.. Shruccksss... That was the exact same feeling I got when Mira got hitched too... And with that too... NOW, I SUDDENLY HAVE THIS LIL PRESSURE with people asking me "So when's your turn!".. Initially, I took it just like a passing remarks.. But with every single soul that starts to ask and repeat that same question, I guess (being a normal human being here! And I dun live in denials fyi! Ahaks!!), now.. I've gotta learn to handle those pressure... Ok peeps.. do me a kind favour, if u think u wanna ask me that same question, let me do the honour of telling you before hand that I WILL TELL YOU WHEN THE TIME COME.. So meanwhile, please sit back and enjoy having the WHOLE of ME whilst stock last!! Hahahahahahaha... *bluek*

Seventh: With all that said and written, I guess, that sums up all... I am a whole happy me, without having pest around me, I am so much happier... So to 'his' lady (sumhow, i feel that you've been 'attempting' to read my blog and thru watevea mediums you could get hold of!! But babe, you're such a failure! Pathetic with a CAPITAL 'P'!) He's all yours.. My heart is kindda stoned for now.. It was never like this previously but I guess, now that i've gone thru so much with him, it explain why I got so stoned and stiff..! To you jerk (opss!), I think, ME, WE & THE REST are so over you, get it straight in your membrain please... I rather be fat, unpretty & not having you ard me coz I felt more B- to tha-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L... THANK YOU! See, I am a woman dat does reality checks along the paths that I crossed, that's how I gain my respect, trust and sanity throughout my lifetime.. So pls eh, i am so not im par with your current one. I am not as child-ish as yours now.. *Spot the difference please.** Ok enuff about that tooootttt! *ahakz*

With all that written down for you fellas, I guess I've gotta end this super lengthy entry.

Till the next entry, I pray that you guys are at your pink of health, I pray that we're bestow with sanity & peaceful serenity throughout, I pray that our lives are blessed with good-beings and happiness without a doubt. And I pray that we'll always be near HIM all out... See Ya ard..

*Tcheuss*

2008-01-03T15:47:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

3rd day of January, the fresh new beginning of year 2008, and here I am back blogging....!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WADDUPPPP YA'LL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I know that I've been missing for awhile. It was all due to those jam packed itenary. And I shall have no complains bout it thou! Coz I truly am enjoying every minute of the day now. To begin with, year 2007 has left me with so much happy, bitter and weet memories. And for you biacthes who dun enderstand this, it's called L.I.F.E! LIFE is not always a bed of roses remember???!

I shall take my time now to sent my gratitue to some fellow frens that I've made, re-kindle the old flame of our frendship back, my besties and couzzie that's always sticking by me thru my ups and downs and in any shape i'm in, to friends that come and go and to those whom I've bumped into year 2007, thank you people for loving me to my very little bits! Even thou I know that I;ve got loads of imperfections, I thanked god for blessing me with so many good people around me called frens.. To those hypocrites, you know who you are, please, get something more frutful in life and learn to love yourself first before others..

I had a wonderful time counting down to the new year... And also I got to witness the clear view of thr fireworks displayed at my 'suite'... From cooking a storm with besties in her kitchen to eating our hearts out all noght long... In a simple vocab, it was MARVELLOUS & SPLENDID!!!

Last nite, something happen! And I had made a pack to myslef to let it go coz it's no point keeping and upholding something that's full of uncertainties..I've just gotta let it go.. And I hope if we ever bump into each other one fine day, I hope and wish to see you being a HUMAN BEING instead... My sincere prayers will always come along side with you aittes...

Righty, i'm making a leave now, HAPPY NEW YEAR (still) aittes people and till my next blog, take care!! *muacks*

2007-12-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dearest All,

It's been awhile.... Off the record, so many great things had happened along this period of time. Be it good or not-so good, it's just a life's journey that all of us have to learn to go thru and also to pull thru'...

One thing for sure, me and besties are truly happy for our dear galfren Ms Marlini coz she got married last weekend.. A new journey for her. A new status she's already in, and hopefully a fresh new beginning for a lifetime of eternity, tranqulity and serenity for her, Insya Allah...

Dear Lini,

We both pray for you the best always thou u might not know or realized it... I think now's the time you'll realized the true meaning of our friendship with you! Take care of yourself gal, your hubby and your lil kid, Kiki ok!! Speaking of which, i'll see ya later ok!! And I've made a special sumthing just for you!! And the girls got sumthing for you too... But wheyyy, it's non other than Mira and myself ok that run ALL those errands!! Hahahahah!!!! 2 weeks straight of torturing horrr dokkkzzz!!! Hahahahahahahah~~~

Alrighty peeps... catch up with you again real soon... Hopefully...
Meanwhile check this video out!! Something i've made for our viewing pleasure....

Tcheuss... *muacks*

Make an on-line slide show at www.OneTrueMedia.com

2007-11-28T11:27:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

I'm still struck by the whole incident... The whole news... The whole thingy...
I just lost a pal recently due to a bike accident in Malaysia. He's a good, nice chap... And I felt horrendously bad for ignoring him all this while.. Real bad...

When my dear pal told me about the news, I was pretty much dead strucked by it!
Ok, i won't list down in details fer now. Coz i'm pretty much still affected by it... Dear Shahrin, if u could hear my prayers and my thoughts right now... I pray for your soul to be blessed and be placed amongst the good samaritans up there in heaven... I'm truly and sincerely sorry for ignoring you all this while. Never would I thought that I won't be able to see or talk to you ever again.. You've been a great pal, a nice buddy and a good listening ears... Whatever the memories shared will always be kept close to me. I'm sorry coz i wasn't being able to fit you in my itenary, i'm sorry for not being able to lead you from wherever we've started... But I pray for you till eternity....Semoga Allah s.w.t mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh-mu.. Insya Allah, Amin. Smile for me up there in heaven yeah dude... :)

So much so i'm trying my so level freaking best not to get it affected, i still do have flashbacks thou....

Anyway, on a brighter note... my dear darling galfren is celebrating her birthday today!! I text her last night but i guess she and the gals must be out partying their tooooottt off... I'll see ya soon aittes... Good things are worth waiting you know darling... So Nani, i hope you'll like my pressies too coz you've waited long enuff! Hahahah! And Nani dear, sorry horr, me not in town for that "plan" lerr...But anw, our trio date ok, we'll make up for the lost times!! HEHEHEHEHE!
Dear darling galfren.... HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY RASHEEQAH!!! May all your dreams, wishes and prayers come true. Insya Allah!!

I look crappy in this picture!!! BUT no choice lehh.. that's the only LATEST pics i had!!

And.... I got my B'day gift from bestie last nite.. Heheheh!! She was like bugging me to accompany her to go there coz she wanna get stuff from Esprit... Never would it struck my mind that I actually did told her that I fell in love with the bling² watch at Esprit.. Mira, i tot i "share it to myself only lehh"... Ahakz~ SO, SHE GOT IT FOR ME!! How sweet... I love it to the max and i love you too GORG (only we know the meaning to it!!)!!!! THANK YOU SWEETIE!! Well she was apologetic for getting me a late pressie coz of the 'peak period'.. But hey, never did i asked or bragged about it!!! My sanity hasn't gone berserk yet! We've never been that figgity about stuffs, and till god permits, insya allah we won't be one of those sorts too.. *praying constantly coz we are still humans afterall* Besides, your 'special delivery' bouquet of flowers to my office on my birthday was more than a suprised for me. Anyhow, thank you yeah!! *muacks*

I L.O.V.E you babe... And me, looking shagged again!!

Went to visit our god momma awile since were near her estate.. Did a lil bit of catching up too... Left her crib close to midnight and we went back home... And yesh arrr, i can't sleep again... Geeeezzzz....!! Ok next up, looking forward for my trip this coming friday.... Looking forward to meet that "lunatic" coz he's been wanting to meet me and besties up eagerly, but we shall just wait and see yeah!! Empty vessels makes the most noise and i wonder wat's next for him to tell when we meet up...

I'm definately gonna recharged myself this weekends... Then next weekend a wedding to attend to, the following weekend prolly i can squeezed in a lil time for the get-away again with besties and family... and the last weekend to chill and a whole new year will begin.. Gossshhh.... Alrighty, before I end.. a special shout out goes to my dear fren Zam.... Bro, if u are reading this... I wish you the best in ur future with the woman you choose. I pray that this Sunday's visit cum "merisik" session will go as smoothly as possible. And we'll catch up too soon aittes...!!! OK!!! Gotta stop here, coz if not i'll just get carried away! And Eqah will hog me down and say... "MASTO, STOP IT WITH THE LONG BLOG ENTRIES k!".. Hahahaha.. And i know u knew by now the reasons why eh... heheheh! I L.O.V.E to be detailed, precise and get-it-straight-in-ur-own-visuals-you -tooottttt to some who just loves to assume and spread unwisely speeches!! REMEMBER, ASSUMPTION IS THE MOTHER OF ALL SCREW UPS!!!! GET IT!! :)

Till then, smile... *tcheuss*

2007-11-07T17:08:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

It just struck me that I've not been updating my blog fer a very very long time... Sigh! It's already the 7th day of November... And it's almost the end of Syawal... Next, it's also coming close to the end of the year 2007! GOSSSSHHH.... Time to do some reality checks again...

Well, as much as I've enjoyed my Aidilfitri, I hope you guys do too... Despite having some friction and glinch along the way, I guess we've gotta come into terms that life is NOT ALWAYS A BED OF ROSES right?! And having to please as many people as u think you would, it's always better to end up just pleasing one or two instead... Hahahahahah!! So to those humans that are still living a life full of denials, please get yourself some medicine to cure yourself... Ahakz!!
There's just too much for me to type it out, shout it out, blurt it out, vent it out and bla bla bla... Thus I guess I better not start typing them all as I'm SO sure that i'm gonna get carried away!!! And to spoil my mood and day would be the last thing i wanna do for now..

Hmmm, tommorrow is yet another PH that im so looking forward so that I could re-charged myself. But duhhh, i've gotta go for another open house at my couzzie's crib! Heyyyy, that's just my family's tradition i guess, open houses are endless till the very last day!! Fuhhyooo......And later on at night, i'm gonna watch a concert @ Esplanade... Im so looking forward for this boii... Oh yeah, it bothers me alot this morning to find out from bestie that she couldn't get a tix coz it's fully booked! Goodness, i was like sourcing out for her high and low just to make her join me... Anw, due to being last minute, till now, i still cant find one for her... Sorry babe!! I've tried thou...(psst: Next time dun mentel and last² minute ok, this is not our CONCERT leh darling.. wakakakakakak... u know wadda mean aittes!!)

Imran, all the best dude... And please mesmerized us with ur vocals coz i'm anticipating for that moment ok!! HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHA!!! Kak Vin, I'll see ya and Abg later... Myra, well hun, i'm sorry for not being able to get u one, and please, just get yourself some rest aittes.... Dun worry too much babe, I love you and that matters most ok!! Take that hiccups you're facing now like a pinch of salt... And babe, please look forward... No more and no one can hinder you now.. I've faith that you're gona excel elsewhere... And YOU WILL.... *muacks*

COMING UP: - Gotta meet Nani & Eqah soon to pass their pressie... PRESENT Nani dah basi ok!! Oh btw, Nani, i'm so overwhelmed by your 'suprised' birthday gift!! Siap ngan courier service sehh!! And the best part was the man that delivers the pressie to my office was like soooooo secretive when i ask him does he know who was it from before opening up the package..!! Dia tak bilang k!! Good job there Hot Momma for 'educating' ur staffs.. Sib baik tau aku nyer co tak use courier co kau!! WAKAKAKAKAKAK!! Fer all u know, we'll be exchanging gifts and stuff via courier siol!! Hahahahahah!! And Eqah... I got something already for you before you even wrote down ur wish list eh!! *BLUEK*... And as I'm writing, you're hinting something to me in MSN now babey... *evil grin* - *LEOPARD IMPRINTS*... hahahah!!

- Marlini's wedding day is drawing near and I still dunnoe if I should get the hantaran gifts for her and her hubby or others stuffs sehhh.... *thinking mode on*

- Gotta start on my my busy "itenary" soon... Hopefully I'll pass with flying colours thou... *Praying mode on*

- Gotta start meeting some old pals that I've not been catching up.. Honestly guys and gals, i missed you people somehow somewhere deep down within me!! *Jiggy mode on*

- And lastly, i'm so trying my best to fulfil my parent's wishes.. So please mummy and dad... Gimme some time aittes... I'm still sourcing out and opening up my options so freaking wide fer now!! Hang on aitees.... *BRAIN FREEZE mode on*

TILL THEN.... LATER~ *muacks*

2007-10-17T17:29:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Still in the festives mood huh??!! So am I.... Hahahahahahahahahhaahhahahahah!!!!
Well my Eid went just fine, perfect and happy, despite me being super exhausted running errands till the very last minute on the eve of raya.... Last minutes groceries shopping, accessories shopping, collecting my baju raya... Gossshhh... I went flat after which....

Received alot of call from pals and dearies wishing me SELAMAT HARI RAYA and not forgetting those sms-es..!! It beeps every single minute and I wear it did!! Anw, to you ladies and gentleman, and especially for those whom I didn't reply.... SALAM AIDILFITRI & MAAF ZAHIR BATIN from me to you people aittes!!

What else need to be typed here huh..??!! gRRR..... Too many lah to type, so much so that I wish I could, I think for now I shall give it a skip. For now, let me focus on the more appropriate issues first aite! First up....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIES!!! I LOVE U TILL BITS!!!!
Yup!! iT'S BESTIES birthday and i ought to be celebrating with her rite? But no... She's got a date with her hubby!! She's been reserved by her hubby!! So I must do the honour of giving it a skip for today... I shall return to have u all by myslef soon aittes babey! I LOVE U & WE'LL CATCH UP SOON OK!!

Next up,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BEST-GALPAL MARLINI!!!!! I LOVE YOU TOO GAL!!!
Her Birthday was y'day!! I was on leave yesterday and she too had plans with her hubby and family... And me, I gotta run some unfinished business y'day afternoon.. So I was all preoccupied! Anw babe, We'll all have to gather and mingle fondle soon horr... Let's get the threesome done up soon too...... Heheheheheheheheheh!!!

Gosh, after all that i've said now, shrucksss, i suddenly felt so worried!!!! ALL of us are getting old!! Darnnnnn~ Day by day age is just catching up... But I hope that the age is just a number for us to grow wiser every single minute and ageing is gonna our pals throughout.... *grin*

Till then stay pinky always and hear from you people soon.... Muacks....

MY FAMILIA

MY BESTIES

2007-10-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

To all my fellow muslims brothers and sisters.....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.....

I'll be back with more updates.... See ya soon.....

2007-09-21T09:32:00.001+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

It's Friday... And It's my mummy's Birthday..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!! I LOVE YOU!!! I've scribble down sumthing last night as I can't sleep and I've wrote this specially for my mummy.... Here it goes.....

Mummy,

I love you with every breathe of my heart and I meant it
I miss you every single seconds of the day when we're adrift
I know god's hearing my prayers, and that's to keep u close in my faith

Mummy, I know I ain't an excellent child towards you
But mummy, just so you know, i'm still keeping my pace
To make you and daddy happy is a phase I'm working on
And I hope it's definately something you can hold on upon

Mummy, I've made tremendous mistakes along the way
I'm glad you and Papa has always held me thru' those dismay
Like I've say, my prayers is definately never gonna go astray
Coz I know I've got you & papa and siblings on any of my relays.

Mummy, no words can describe my gratitute and how much I'm blessed
To call you my mummy, to have your drips of blood in my cappillaries
And on this day, I will make a vow, and that's to make you and daddy
Happy and proud before your enternity... I LOVE YOU MUM! I REALLY DO!!

Your one and only... "kakak"... (like how u've always call me~)

Alrighty, hehehehehehehe..... I'm so sleepy right now... And definately, today is another long day, especially so after iftar... Bro was telling me this morning that he thought of bringing mummy and the rest to JB tonight! Gosh... I was there infact last night with my galfren and his "daddy"! Hahahaha! "Daddy" Zam, brought us to go makan at Pasar Borong area.. Goodness, I didn't know that place exist in the first place either! So thank you "Mama & daddy" for again bringing me to places like such! I so wanna shop for DvD's there, for some nice2 stuffs they sold along that stretch and wanna go racky the bazaar, but firstly, it was way past midnight, we've gotta go back coz all of us are working today and secondly, I haven't got my pay! So no shopping!!!! Hahaha! As usual, nutthing new from me, I've overspent this month!! Plus not forgetting, credit card bills coming up... *wink² at besties! I know u are definately gonna gimme this evil grin eh... wakakakak!! Btw, sorry besties, communication breakdown lah! I will take the order again when gaji ok! It's ration, so still must get anyway! Haha!

This week more or less I'm still recovering from the fever, flu, cough and all others... Fever has subsided, but coughing and the influenza is still lingering around! Cheettt!! I am so happy that at last I managed to squeeze sometime to meet besties and her hubby to iftar together at Riverside Indonesian Restaurant on Tues! Yippeee... Coz I think i've not met her for about 1 week already liao! But i think i need to add sumthing here, the food at Riverside Indonesian Restaurant @ Clarke Quay is NOT FABULOUS! Seriously, it's blunt, tasteless vegs, insufficient marination on the chicken and to top it all, it ain't cheap either! I would rather have a Seoul Garden buffet spread instead! I'm kindda particular and fussy about food. Not being difficult here, but I've always appreciated food (which explains my huge figure now! haha!) and portion of my investments are on food, so I've always ensure they are worth investing for! Hahaha! I think it runs in my entire family, both mummy's & papa's side... We pay particular attention on our food consumptions! I'm not bothered if it's a high end dine or even a street style hawker, so long as the food is NICE, it's my game... Conclusion now, Riverside Indonesian Restaurant dishes are a whack!! Then on Wed nite, iftar with my long lost darling pal/bro, Mr Rizalie a.k.a Jojo Mojo! It's more of an iftar cum catching up session cum business investment proposal! So i'm multi-tasking here! Hahahah! Make it a point to iftar at home yesterday coz it's been 2 days since i've not been with my family... And tonight too coz gonna celebrate mummy's birthday! Yabadabadoo...

And this weekend, I need to start cleaning up the room and especially my wardrobe... They are disasterous!! Hahahahahahah!! Can't wait to catch up with peepz tommorrow and also to start doing the kuihs next week!! Besties, baking lesson at your crib soon ok! I sooooo~ look forward coz it's our first time ever doing this together & definately many more years to come... And when I have my own house, you'll be at my crib baking pulak ok!! *lolz*

Till then, stay tune for more..... *muacks*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY.... LOVE YOU.....

2007-09-18T16:04:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

First and formost, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN to all my Muslims... And today marks the 6th day of the fasting month. Insya Allah, with much blessings and will, we'll all go thru this holdy month of Ramadhan with a bliss... Amin....

Well, I've been down with fever since Friday night... But still fasted thru' out my weekends... I'm bad... Coz I slept almost 3/4 of the day... Hehehehe! And I was so eager and determine to get well coz I dun wanna be absent on Monday! I've got things to clear up in the office and also I just dun wanna trouble my bosses... *Feeling perkerja teladan tau nie!* Anw, I've been having alot of cravings for kuihs this time round... It's like a must to buy a kuih to break fast. Anw, its part of my family habit to splurge into buying all sorts of kuihs and other finger food for all of us to enjoy it after break fast. Heheheheheheheeh! Soooo.... I think I didn't shed much weight in this month....

I've not been meeting up with besties for sure... She's busy running errands for her home and hubby, while I was busy running around... Hahahahah! I've not been meeting other galfrens of mine too.. *bluek* EVERYBODY SEEMS BUSY LATELY!!! Grrr.... sigh...
But hopefully, we'll be able to make it for an iftar session very very soon ok... And hopefully the Satuday plan will go on as usual without any delays...Hahahahahah!!! Gosh, speaking of which, my mummy's birthday is this Friday!! Pheww.... Lucky bought her pressies ealier..!! Hahaha!! And as usual, I've yet to do the planning to think of what to do for my mummy's birthday. Bro has been SUPA DUPA busyyyyy and tight with his studies. And his exams has begun, thus, he's excused for not doing the planning! OH YEAH BRO, GOOD LUCK!!! We're so proud of cha.... And yeah, please make my niece sleep over at our place soon... MISSED HER LIKE CRAZZY DESPITE SEEING HER EVERY WEEK THOU!!! Hahahahahahha!!!

Yesterday, I've gotta rushed back from werk just to make it in time to iftar at home. I was feeling very drowsy the whole that... And despite rushing, I still am not able to make it on time.. Sob.. Sob...And supposedly after Iftar, someone wanna come over ma place just to get sum stuffs from me (lame-o!), but apparently, HE DIDNT TURN UP! Was I angry that he promise to call me and come over but he didnt? ANSWER: "NO!!"... I wasn't even affected.. Sungguh!!
Firstly, I wasn't hoping or expecting TO SEE him. Infact I feel asleep instead.. Call me bad~ I dun care less, but he's forever not changing! And I'm entitled for my own judgement..Silly toad!! He also mentioned that he misses me and besties like hell, but he didnt even make an attempt to call for a meet up. So should I be bothered? We're both expecting him to appear back in our lives when he's at his down peak, and amazingly, he did! Sorry, we've moved on dude.. I've moved on either... And so does the people you've hurt tremendously along the way... THEY HAVE ALL MOVE ON! So when ur turn hun?! Ahakzzz.... Typical u! Dat sums up all...!! Like I've say to you and if the paparazzi's reading this.. convey this to him pls... U wanna win back our trusts and heart... I think you should accquire much armour and sheilds first before entering your battle! Not that we're tough headed, but we're HUMANS that deserves R.E.S.P.E.C.T! It's easy to mend a broken heart.. But scars are an imprint that lasts forever... Get that straight in your head....! THank you babey!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!

I've also read someone's blog sum time back... Can't really recall the exact date and time... That soul was basically repremanding incidences that happen like ages ago! Why waste your time blogging and making yourself look pathetic?! Please lah, the readers are more smarter than you. U hailed and made a scene, then u PRETEND it wasnt for nuthhing! YOU're such SORE do u know that?! If u wish to direct the specific blog to someone else, I think you've gotta look up in the dictionary to find more suitable words in order not to be so visible aittes! *bluek* Well, sorry, I know this doesn't got anything to do with me... So why am I interfering.. Not interfering but just ammending some hiccups... Coz these affected sould are someone I knew... So grow up la pls!! DAH TUA TAU!!! TIME LAMBAT EH NAK MAIN GAME CAM NIE!!!haizzz....Nauzubillah... ;)

Ok, guys... Im signing off for now... I'll be back with more updates... Can't wait to go iftar later.. Hehehehehe!! *WHISTLE - OPPPZZZZ~ puasa kannn*

SELAMAT BERPUASA AND BERBUKA OK EVERYONE!!! *muacks*

2007-09-12T09:48:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

It already the 12th day of September.... My oh my!! Goshh....
And tommorrow marks the first day of Ramadhan... Honestly, this year, I felt just happy and waiting in anticipation to welcome the month of Ramadhan! Prolly I knew why?! Prolly I'm just getting happier each day and I'm just being blessed with good health and wealth for now... No more heart aches, no more tears, no more worries and fear... All Im getting these days is just laughters everywhere! WELL, AS USUAL, LIFE IS NOT ALWAYS A BED OF ROSES YAW SEE!

And this year, me, besties, my ladies are all planning for a UNIFORM OUTFIT as part of our family collabo!! So tell me, why shouldn't I be happy and looking forward to this auspicious event!

Did some catching up with some old pals last nite... Had dinner at Secret Recipe instead of Seoul Garden which I'm sooooo~ wanting to eat there!!! .. And basically just laugh our night away!! I'm missign besties and galfrens and we should plan for an iftar session soon... Right back on track, work has been a lil busy these days! At times, it does affects my mood badly coz doing research is NEVER AN EASY tasks! Dammmnnnn~!!! AND msn-ing pals is infact impossible these days!!

Well, i've got so much to write and vent but hey.... Shall we not spoil our mood again!! Especially mine.... Hahahahahaha!!! Alrighty, to all my muslims frens... SELAMAT BERPUASA! And to the rest.... Enjoy ur days....

*muaks*

2007-08-29T13:57:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Sorry for neglecting my blog... It's been awhile now and I must admit that I'm just too lazy to type it all down here! Since i'm having some 'leisure' time in the office, I'll just take the opporcunity now to blog it down....

Life has been great, thou I wish it would habe been a lil better and superb! People have been nice. I've been 'travelling' alot. Meeting new kindda people that I wish I would have known them much ealier. Things are looking at a brighter end. I guess I'm on the right track now after the 'humpty dumpty had a great fall'... I rise up with a gusto!! Yahoo... Couldn't been able to do it because of HIM, the almighty, and my family and closest pals... Thank yous can never be enough but that's the only means I have to you guys now...

I'm terribly missing too many people... But sometimes, time will just heal the situation. I'm glad I've met new breeds of peopl, I'm glad that I have my besties still sticking with me thru all my ups and down and I'm just blessed to have my daddy , mummy and siblings and family members (especially my coussie)to be around me often. Gosh, never did I expect that we're almost reaching towards the end of the year 2007. Scarry huh... Shrucks!! Too many happy occasions for this year and many more ahead before the end of the year... A galfren of mine that always wanna get "emotional" with me everytime I say something is gonna get married this year end!! Alhamdulillah!! Honestly, I'm happy for her and pray the best for her too... FOR EVERYONE TOO AITTES!! lolz... Gal, you know who you are. Not that I've been neglecting you, forgetting you, and not keeping you updated of my well beings,honestly... I'm not at my peak period now.. And all I'm asking is for you to understand. As much as other galfrens and my besties understand me, I hope you do too (coz I know u feeling me too!). Sometimes, thou distance seperates us, the heart beat is still felt! So I shall not elaborate any further. I hope you knew what I meant!

I'm not denying the fact that I'm definately not a perfect soul, but let's live our lives in reality... Old formulas might not be applicable today. We're not always laughing everyday. We're not always HAPPY every single minute, but non the less, WE could change that fate coz it's all in the hands of the beholder. I'm still, and will constantly struggle to live my life the best and I will NOT settle for any less!!

Besties kept me company last night at my office while I clear up my stuffs... She cracked a hell load of silly jokes just to make me smile despite knowing that I'm rushing on an assignment... Never did it crosses my mind that she could really be that crappy in an office scene! Wakakakakak! I felt sooooo bad coz i was held up and she gotta rush home to cook for her hubby's dinner! She even make me felt worst by sending me back home before she heads home! cheettt, double shitty feeling.. thanks ah mira!! wakakakakakakakakakak!!!! Anw, that's a typical behaviours of ours... We care and we share! RIght onot besties?!! Sum people find us weird, nonsense, crappy, loud and bla bla bla... But duh~ do we givva damn?! *I've learnt from the best huh!* THANK YOU LAH MUZAIRAH BTE RAHMAT!! I LOVE YOU DEEP²!!!!

Today, kindda busy doing up reports coz end month coming... Managed to squeeze in sumtime to do conference chatting with my buddies. Anw, I was shocked coz a newly known person was add up in the conversation... Apparently sumone knew this person! And seriously, I dun have any idea why she's exposing herself too much! Washing dirty linen in public is not a good gesture u shuld potray! I think u're wise enuff not to dissed someone whom you've spent part of ur life with aittes! No one is stopping u from hating, but just dun do the "laundry" scene in public... It reflects back on you too and it'll make u look like a blardy fool instead!! So learn something here!

YEAHHH!! That "guy" has been ssssssooooo EXTREMELY nice to me these day! *wonder* Calling me to check on my well beings now and then! Sharing his probs (nuthhing new from you btw!), his plans, his thoughts and sharing some "unwanted news" about his fellow circle of frens and his EX and the tickling part is, sharing me his 'portion' of his heart to be my fren... Gosh, should I say I'm just happy or weary instead?! Anw dude, THANKS A ZILLION for all those kind gestures, thoughts and concern on me! APPRECIATE IT ALWAYS! Thank You! But dude, like i've told you, I wont hate u for the tears u've caused, instead i'm glad that I've learned a good lesson from you. I shall refrain from repeating them, insya allah.. So thank you for loving ur "pal" still... It's a NEW me!! And I hope you could come into terms of excepting the NEW ME TOWARDS YOU! To the rest, I'm still the same ol gal... Maybe with a lil difference thou (but changes have to be progressive and constant right?!) <> *wink*

Tommorrow and over the weekends are filled with plans already... Fasting month around the corner... Yeahhhuuuu! I'm awaiting it with anticipation!! Meanwhile, stay tuned for more!! I love you bits.... *muacks*

2007-08-22T09:50:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Hell yeah!! I know i've been neglecting my blog for awile now! Sincere apologies to all the ladies and gentleman! Infact too much things to run that I seriously don't have the mood to blog! I'm not at my pink of health and goddamit, i lost my voice since 2 days ago.. Still "hunting" to get my voice back! Haha! I'm missing too many people again... Including the non other than my besties and my galfren Dyva! Shrucckksss! I think I've not catch up with besties for almost like 3 weeks now and Dvya for god knows how many months!! Arrrggghhhh!!! And like today, I was hoping that I could me both my galfrens including another long lost abandoned galfren for a lepak session at JB..! What a place to 'lepak' eh??!!! But damn... Dey each have things to do so cannot joining lorrr... Wakakakakakak!! I'm on half day today and later on im gonna be the "drebar" again!! Goshhh!! Aittes.... Gonna have a great dinner with my aunt from London and hers and mine family later on in the evening!! Wuuhhhuuuu!! And I seriously pray that I could meet the rest up too......

Oh Yeah, feeling my galfren Sheeqs rite now!!! Her "perasaan tergangu" lorr... So I fully understand her..! And yeah, Nani's hari "merdeka" is coming up soon.. Hopefully I'll be able to join them!!! We'll paint the town red aittes ladies..!! Lolz... No "kakak's" allowed please!! *personal joke btwn hot momma & sheeQs*!!!!! :)

Hope so see my lil niece soon too!! That adorable, finger licking and chubby kiddo!!!! Argh!! See.. now i'm begining to miss more and more people! Damn!!! Hahahahahahahahahahahahah!!! Ok, ok I shall take my leave now... see ya soon..... *muacks*

2007-08-17T10:19:00.000+08:00

*peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Yeahhhh..... It's weekends again!! And another long weekend it will be... Yipee... Im just not in the right mood to blog coz i've got so many many things running in my head now... For you paparazzi's, yeah I have to tell you this! Yeah, I am hoping for something to happen, but im aint in any rush... Good things coming along my way alhamdulillah!!

Anw, you fella, here's a video and a biggup for our yet another talent..! Known them for ages, and apparently, someone's gotta fling on my besties at the moment of time during our active involvements in the scene... Besties, I;m sure you know waddda mean!! Check this out!! Besties, I know you're happy with ur hunney bunney "rocker" now! But hell yeah, just for ya to reminise babey... Hahahahah!!! Can I tap that besties?!! Wakakakakakka *personal joke between me & besties*...

Aittes, nuff said, enjoy an biggup to ya all the way from our Lion City!! Full Stop!

2007-08-14T09:50:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

[MY LOVELY DQ HAVING HER SPLISH SPLASH...!]

Dear Readers,

Ouchhhh~ My feet hurt lerr dey! Goddamit! Hehehehe.... See lah, nak feeling kai wedges kan, amik kao ubat oiii!!! Wakakakak! Anw, I was having my nice stroll to werk this morning! For a simple reason, I'm wearing high heels wedges and darn! It's been a lon time since.. I seriously dunnow wads got into me seh! But anyhow, I'm now barefooted... And Im happy! Hahahah! Had my teh tarik and epok² for b'fast..! Im so hooked up to the teh tarik at Amoy St boiii... Cheettt...! Despite the hassle of queueing up, I still insists in getting them! Infact this morning, I bought for one of he vendors and they were so excited to get those tea from me! Prrr mahh!! Hahahahaha.. *kidding lah*... Niwaes, njoy ur drinks....!

Well, last evening, I was supposed to head off home when my dear pal Eqah called me up to meet up and go back home together! Since we've met at CT Hall and Eqah started to talk, I was getting so engrosed that I asked her to chill around fer awile if she's got no plans..! Apparently she doesn't and thus we went to BK @ Eqah's old hood and we talked...! TWe both got like so many things to catch up on and i guess if we continue, it can last us till today! Wakakakk! Ard 10+pm, we headed off home.. I'm getting restless am being "smoke-free" really bugs me! Even Eqah notices that too!! Wakakakakak! Melampau eh!!... Oh chhheeettt~ I've gotta blog this down, and here it goes!! As the both of us were busy talking, suddenly out of no where, and out of god knows which direction he came from, this 'man' came and approached our table! Bapak² polisi lah siol!! But he came and approached us simply because he asks for Eqah's name.. He came and mumble initially and we and especially Eqah has to go like "Huh?! Huh?!"... Then we managed to figure out that he actually asked... "Boleh tau tak nama saper, nak kenal2 lah!".... DAMN!!! VERY GOOD NEW PICK UP STATEMENT!! Hahahahahahahahahahh! I thought he came coz he wanna ask for a ciggies or lighter or sumthing, tapi rupanya nak tau nama dar deyy! Kanasai!! Anw, Eqah got bloated and blushed (can see lah darling!) plus she after that became SO tak kena gaya lorr!! Hahahahah! We ended up bursting into laughter siak! Anw, like wad Eqah mention, it takes alot of courage to do that especially with having a fren at one corner waiting for you!!! Hahahahahahah! That was the JOKE of THE DAY siakkk!!! Hehehehe! Anw, we had a good catching up, then head off home, shower, mamam coz mummy cook something i can't resists, read abit then decided to listen to ceramah by my favourite UStaz Akil Hayy at youtube, and zzzzzzz.... off to dreamland!

And now, all alone in the office again... And about to start doing my thang now!! Jeng3...~!!! Aittes, see ya when I see ya again... *muacks*

2007-08-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

It's been a good relaxing weekends.... I had my sweet revenge fulfilled.. Yeahhhh~ I had a good long hours of sleep from Friday till today!! Heheheh! SPLENDID!! Alrighty, i got home ealier from an aunt's place to celebrate granny's birthday! Alhamdulillah, semoga panjang umur and setiasa sihat yeah gran!!

We also had a kenduri "doa selamat" for my uncle who has been sick lately and my aunty whom is goin for an ops this wednesday to remove her pancrease as I heard from my mummy, it's sort of cancer-ous and needed to be removed soon! Aunty J, my prayers goes out to you (and the whole family too!)... Don't worry yeah, we all know for a fact that you're indeed an strong woman... And we're positively sure that you are going to get thru this.. Insya-Allah... Pheww! With all sorts of news as such being told to me one by one, I just can't help but wonder, why does all this have to happen yeah suddenly? Well everything happens for a reason right? I know that too, but it seems like only yesterday, we were all gathering around somewhere sharing silly jokes and crack laughters amongst our coussins, aunties and uncles... Gosh! And Aunty J, it seems only like yesterday, you held me in your arms and told me that I'm gonna be ok and to prove others that I'm sumone from now on when I had my down fall in life once upon a time! Aunty J, you will never be alone and that's a promise from me and family to you.. I'm just crossing my fingers now and praying that things will go out fine..*Insya Allah*..grrrrr....~

Oritey, had a done some catching up with my dear pal Eqah ealier...! Tak habish2 lah this people! Well, I've learnt that in life, if you starts to point finger at others, always remember, there are four more fingers point back at you... (unless if you're handicap or wat so ever lah!).... This people are just struggling to put up a daily drama in their so called 'high end' lifestyle! Please lah, dun try too hard! And I think you act is about to be doomed & stumble soon too! Tak penat eh korang?! Kita yg dengar ni penat tau!! Haizzz! Watever it is, let's just not forget the KARMA! And it''s not worth all your dramas aittes for such a beautiful lies!! Whhoopppzz!! Pls have some sense of remorse for your poor thang hubby at least! He may not be perfect either and AGAIN, No One Is Perfect!, hubby, but since you choose to put up with him, it's selfish of you to let him struggle on your fishing game!! Duhhh~!!Chheettt!

Aittes, now i'm gonna logged off and gonna catch the new season of "AMERICA's GOT TALENT" later on... Then off to my dreamland! Psst... Mira, I miss you!! Tommorrow chill at my opis ok hunney!! Can lah pls!!! I know u love me, I know you want me... hahahahahh!! Psst: I've got a little conffession here, I'm werking on sumthing now... Hopefully I can get it done sooner than what's expected! Insya Allah, pray for me peepz aittes! Once it's done, it's confirmed and it's official, i'll let you guys know aittes! But for now, this is gonna be my tiny little secrects for you dearies and paparazzi's aittez!! *muacks*

2007-08-10T12:52:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

SECOND ENTRY OF THE DAY! ;)

After almost four years of going astray, a slight glinch in friendship, a hiccup along the way and a pointless fury tentrum that begun the whole mess... I guess we've both grown up now, we've managed to BURY the past and rekindle the sweet old memories back again... And it's all fated! God's just fair yeah!!! *ALHAMDULILLAH* He'll show you why these things happen! He make u learn the hard way in everything, so even if you fall, he knows that we're capable to stand up on our feet back!! I know for a fact, FRIENDS are a rare species.... And that's y i'm keeping those that's worthy in my hearts closely NOW! Having lots of friends are just a numbers, it doesn't determines nor assure you anything!! But to have true ones, I believe and I know it's not easy, especially to keep up with each other nonsense right??!!! So noe matter how you lost them, you are a distant from them, or no matter how busy you are, if the Almighty have included them in your itenerary, it won't be easy to delete them from your memory!
I've lost her once upon a time! We were tough chics long ago... Now that we've came to terms and bury the hachet, I'm blessed to meet her again... Thou' the venue wasn't the "right" place to meet at, but yeah, her warmth hugs made me realised that it's just fate to have her back in my dictionary! I've bumped into a long lost friend... And she's my dear lady... SheeQs@[EQAH]!!! Nice meeting u back that night dear!!....*muacks*

Well, to those whom don't believe in FRIENDSHIP, DESTINY & FATE & TO TOP IT UP, FAITH.. I think you missed out alot lah! Get some life ok! NO ONE IS PERFECT! REMEMBER THAT! I'M KEEPING MY "FRIENDS LIST" ORGANIZED NOW!!! Hahahaha!! lolz...

My lady since '97... Ms Qeesha & Ms SheeQs....

My HeartThrobe since '99... Non other than MisseS PaiZ...

My deAr couzzin with a 'headache', hahaha! since BORN!!... Ms Alin.....

2007-08-10T09:34:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Howwddyyy!!! Yeah I know!! Sorry aittes!! Pardon me for going missing these few weeks! Was busy with my own things and also i've not been in the best shape and at my pink of health! Anw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR LIL COUZIN, NAZREEN!! There's too many things to catch up on actually... And today I guess I shall not blurt out too much...!

Been staying contented all this while, been a great frens and buddies to everyone as much as I can... Still trying to be a good & filial daughter to my parents... Hahahah! Wad else need I say! I'm still striving with my daily issues, and I'm trying to stay as grounded as I can. Like I've say many2 times, be it here or with the people that I'm close too.. I may not be perfect and NO ONE IS PERFECT EITHER! So why bear grudges if you ain't got a clue?! Why HATE & DETEST someone when we're all imperfect?! Why continue having 'beef' with unworthy of people?! Maybe that's just my nature and that's me.. SIMPLY being ME!! With so much that i've gone thru', I believe and always have faith that people change, one fine day either for the better or worst is yet to be known! Been bumping much with long lost pals and "unexpected" people lately! All I can say is, see for yourself now people.. Who's having their prime time now and having the last laugh at them??!! Honestly, I'm just glad to know all these walks of people, for which I learned and try to take them as a living example of not becoming or even ending up like them! Everyone made mistakes (including myself ok!!), everyone has their fair sets of ego, everyone have their rights.. But be rationale, be weary coz for all you know, you'll be the one being laughed at! It's fine to be a lil ego at times, it's also perfectly fine to be a little difficult at times, but don't over react on that coz YOU AINT MAKE IT FAR! And infact you wont GO FAR even!!! I've always inherit this from my dad i must say.. and I thanked god, alhamdulillah, that makes me a little different from others (despite the difference in my physics!! Hahahah)! Daddy has been a simple man, easy to talk to, who's gone thru ups and downs in life too. And mind u, he's also not BORN with a GOLDEN SPOON! But to see him at where he is today, I guess that makes me proud to be his daughter. I admit I may not be the perfect daughter to them, and I too may cause them tears at times, but rest assure this dad, all i'm doing right now is solely for you! Mummy has been difficult most of the times, but to have her as my mum and coming out from her womb, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, she's everything I need now... Oh yeah, one more thing! Mummy & Papa, STOP MAKING THE PRE-ARRANGEMENTS prior to my consent aittes! I've not found anyone yet! So pls... just let me do my own thangs first for now at least aittes!! hahahah! ;)

So people, let's just try to be care free for now! Enuff of manipulation, coz u will bite on your own tongue! Take me as I am... And I'll promise to take you as who you are not wad u are made up off! And pls, dun take me for a ride, coz let me be honest here, i'm hefty for ur ride aittes!! Missing my besties and pals that i've longed neglected! Sorry peeps!! I'll make a return I promise u that!! ;) Till then, live life to your fullest and bear no grdges coz is definately gonna take much of your health! *muacks*

Love me, love me not, personally, I dun givva SHITTTT!! .... Qeesha....(",)

2007-08-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Wassup~ ya'll!! Howddy!! I've been good and can never ask for better i guess...
Met besties and couzie last night..! We've had a blast conversation... And I guess all of us really have 'grown'!! Wakakakakakak! And Myra to be the next spokes-person for the "WIFEY CLUB"!! Ahakz!!

Suprised everyone!! I got a call from someone I least expected!! And as expected, it's him!! Was actually talking like norm, but as typical as he is, he;s just more interested to know my well-beings rather than his own!! And still, all his problems are just sticking with him i guess! I think i've said enuff and I think I've done enough for you! So it's about time, you learn to fish on your own pond! Pretty much concern with his situations but honestly, I just donnoe why, but it's just not triggering me to go further to help neither to assists him! Am I mean?! I guess I'm not right?! I guess I've done the right thing huh!! Again, I've made it clear that the conversation ends where it supposed to end...! He brag abt the past and all... But damn, im not interested dar deyy! As usual, pin pointing his faults to others and denying the fact abt some issues, I honestly felt that he's not learn any lessons yet! Got the cheek to even say he missed us! Goddamit!! ahahahahah! Anw, the onversation was purely subtle and it ends with a bye, so to conclude, its just a normal hello & goodbye conversations..... To all the paparazzi's hear me well aiites!!! Grrr~~

Okie, today have a dinner date and gonna visit my aunt soon. She's not well and so, me and family will drop by her place later on or prolly tommorrow~! Till then.... I miss ya people that i've not heard from them for so long! Call me aittes!! *muacks*

2007-07-30T10:45:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Waddup ya'll! Weekend's over... I wish we had it longer, but nah, that's never gonna happen rite?! So face it!! Anw, I had a good weekend thou! Meeting up with couzzie and her bros and having to get to know knew breeds of people, I must say that I'm anticipating every moments I have right now fruitfully! Oh life!! It get's more and more rough to go thru any obstacles, but each time it comes by, the solutions are getting more subtle and simplified!... Oh Almighty, thank you!

Went chilling at our old favourite spot.. ACM's Indochine!! It's been ages since I last step into the place, and having to go back there again last weekend was like a gushing flashbacks in my membrain! Guddamit!! The very last time I stepped into the place was with someone back in those days! And the last visit I had with that particular person, we were actually discussing and talking about some future plans (on which obviously it didn't happened lah!)... Despite all those memoirs, I managed to overcome it eventually when couzzie's gud bro decided to catch up with her! Damn... Can u imagine that even thou they were good buddies, they have not met for almost 2 years! That's sad! How can u not catch up with ur bro fer 2 years eh? Hahaha!! Anw, both of them got "VALID" reasons for not being able to meet up I guess... Couz's bro, Afad, brought his bestpal along... Introducing "Adik" now! *Ehem*.. Honestly peeps, Im just not comfy in calling him adik.. He's my age, he's a guy and he's someone I just knew... Thou that's his "maiden/ manja" name, I still find it weird sumhow!! But 'adik' is NOT WEIRD at all! Infact me and couz thought that he was cool and a laid back sort! Thou he may initally posed a different image, but after awile, he's just Mr Coolio! Both of them were infact, but adik just somehow managed to grab my attention! Mind you, thou he may potray a different sort, but damn, he's such a macho when he speaks and he's wise! And mind you again, he speaks good English aittes! So that explains why there's this saying..."DON'T JUDGE IT'S BOOK BY IT'S COVER"!!.... Me and adik were the middle'man' behind some issues couzzie and Afad were facing!! Wakakakakakak! Genius think alike? I dunno, but he has inspired me to just learn about his breeds somehow or rather.... They drove us to have a late supper at Prata Cafe, sumwhere along Botanic Gardens.. Goodness, the place is super secluded! I think if you dun have any means of transportation, the place is not practical at all... And we headed off to have some time-off at O Bar.. As expected, 'someone' has some 'mat' moves there!! I'm NOT suprised at all! They sent us back home at I chilled at couzzie's place... I had fun that nite (minus the bag that gone wrong half way, and the cramps from COKE! Shit! No choice coz super thristy!!)... So bad tau my couz, she knew I dun drink COKE and yet she dun get me a sprite!! Apparently they dun have it i heard!! Heheheheh! Kidding lah couz!!

Sunday was a super lazy day... I wish I was at home instead.. So that I can just laze around all day long... Went for a sumptuos dinner at International Family buffet @ TM... My aunty's treat to the whole family! I almost go flat after that dinner! Bloated!! Anw, thank you Cik Baba's for the treat!! Love it!! Anw, had a great talk with couzzie at her crib... Well couz, if you are reading this, let me tell cha that I sincerely understand the phase that you are going thru right now. I understand the amount of pressure that's been bugging u. I understand the contradictions that's been a dilema to ya. The least now I could do for ya is to pray and hope the for the best in whateva your decisions may be. Couz, just don't bother about anyone and about what are they gonna talk about you. Humans never stops talking couz. Be it good, they talk and be it bad, they bitched! We're humans too right?! That includes US too right?! So why bother?! So long you make the right decision, at the end of the day, It's you that's gonna face the music. U know my phases too, and u knew how I went thru it, how wrecked I was at that point of time... Notice sumthing couz? I'm getting thru it still right?! But have I managed and have I come to terms with myself?! U know for a fact the answers ritte????!!! I am not expecting you to be like me, not at all couzzie... All I want and i'm asking of you is to see ya happy. Why hang on on a loose rope? If you have to let it go, let it go.. But if you have to keep it, strive and fight for it aittes! NO HUMANS ARE PERFECT COUZ!! Get that straight to your head!! Even if u could or you couldn't find someone else as good as now or infact below your current expectations, if you can find that someone u love, you'll cherished them couz! Trust me... Life is all about learning from the past and yearning for the future if ya noe wadda mean dear... Actions speaks louder than words couz. I know that me and other closest ones that's concern about cha is giving you all the advises that they could ever provide you, but at the end of the day, it'll bottom down to YOU, JUST YOU!! Follow your heart. Just be yourself! Dun givva damn to those people aittes! In whatever state, shape or situations you are going to be in, my love for you will never go astray! That's ma promise, and so long as you are my cousin, nuthing can ever breaks our blood ties aittes... I'll love you unconditionally...! Insya Allah, Amin.... Enuff fer now!!

As for now, I guess i'm at my peak period!! I'm thankful for whatever that has come in between my ways, in which I learn the every moves of it! Everything happens for a reason right?! I'm glad i'm happier now... So much so that I am beginning to taste the sweetness of those that are sincere and honests around me! To them, I love you people!! Besties, I love ya too hunney! I know we don't have much time to spent now a days. Our time are limited and the days are pretty restricted, but dun u worry,.. You're always close to my heart babe! If I ever be a wife, eventually, I'll definately be grounded & settled like what you are right now! Coz that's the whole blardy purpose of settling down rite people?! So besties, u've been a great role model to us ya noe!! I may even end up being MORE TYPICAL HOME MAKER in future sehhh!! Grrrr... scarry tau!! Dun be suprised??!! Weehahahah!! Aites, It's end month again and i'm as packed as I can be at this period of time... I'm making my way out now... Oh yeah, to my another dear sweet couzzin, the lil sweetie pie Dee, HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear... Kak Nur & Kak Tini will date you soon aittes!! Enjoy ya day aittes hunney!! *muacks, muacks, smooocchh~*

Cheers!!! Adiozzz!!

2007-07-27T11:48:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Yup! Yup! I know that I've been missing for sometime already... Pardon me dearies..!! I'm just simply lazy and have been having too much fun that I can;'t keep up with my blog! Lolz!!

Alrighty, I'm just doing fine and I'm just happier as each day passes by! Seriously, things are so looking on a brighter side of me now, but of course there are still soem dues that I hope will clear off very soon..! It's Friday!!! And that calls for a weekend of rest!! Definately enjoying my holz too!! And hopefully my BKK trip will be confirmed soon too! And I'm not going there for yet another hoilday but its on official duties!! Hahaha! But still I hope I could squeeze in some time for leisure... *cross fingers*

Alrighty... I've gotta make my move now... I'll catch up with you guys soon, hopefully aittes....! *muacks*

2007-07-19T11:42:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

First up, kudos to Aliff for winning the Anugerah Competiton! I was actually hoping for Roslan or Maiya thou', but non the less, congrats to all!! Well, I had a sumptuos dinner at Newton with Lynn.. I almost wanna puke after that!! And people, should you go and eat at Newton, pls be infromed not to order Pirate's TOm Yam ok! They are super ripped off!! For a bowl of Tom Yam Soup, costing $12 , it only contains afew cuttlefish, 3 muscles and one pathetic prawn! Can u believe it! Goddammit!! Hahahahahah! But anyhow, it was just a fine dinner with my galfren! Rushed home to catch the Anugerah, but i still do miss the first half hour of the show!!

Alrighty, well you know wad people?! I'm just am mentally tired and shagged right now!! So much things gushing down at one go! But praises to my Almighty, he's just continuously giving me the strength knowing that I desperately needed one!! Anw, I'm far much happier now! So much happy than when I was with sumone... Anw, we sumhow or rather managed to talk last night and cleared off some outstanding dues.. Well, I've just decided to let go of everything and I meant every single things I had with him... This beef is not going anywhere!! I'm the least interested person on earth now to wanna know bout your problems too.... Everyone of us have their own sets of probs to think off... And I guess since u think you're better off being like that and stagnent, pls dun bother bout me... I'm just great for now!! Anw, I think I've gotta stop here... Well dude, and u foes who's reading this... check out this song from Imran Ajmain.. I think it explains everything that I have to say to 'you'... I'm tired... And I'm a lil drained up to think of all this for now... Oh yeah! To my dear pal Mr Pong... (Aka Chippo)... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE! See ya later alligator... *muacks*

Compromise
Written/Composed by Imran Ajmain

Love is not a given
You’re not forgiven
But we all easily submit

You have forsaken
What you have taken
So we all still incomplete

I thought we were playing a similar game
And after these years it’s still been the same
And you, of all people, still have your name

Prechorus
What about compromise?
I hold no disguise
You should know better

Chorus
It’s not I don’t want you, I want you
But I need you to be
A little bit faithful and grateful and loyal to my needs
Don’t think I was selfish, I was selfless
And afterall I’ve given you
It’s not I don’t love you, I love you
Well, at least I try to

Trust is not an object
You could reject
But we all easily believe
You have been waiting
And all I’ve been saying
“Please be there for me”

It’s not like we got a thousand years
I’ve yet to express to you all of my fears
And while you have wasted all of your tears

Prechorus
What about compromise?
Why do I pay the price?
Only you have the answers, answers

Chorus
Bridge
I know I’m not perfect but I deserve respect
And after all that’s said and done
You remain the only one in my heart
It’s not my ego
But if you go
I’d have so much to say
Did we pick a good fight to prove who’s wrong and who’s right?
Can we finally compromise?

Can we at least talk about it?
Can we at least compromise?

2007-07-17T10:21:00.001+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Olla Ollah mamaz & papi'z!!! Howwwddy peepz!! Oritey.... Wad's been happening lately? Alot!! And it's only Tuesday hunney, and I'm so shagged!! Hahaha! Well, i've gotta pretty much fine weekend...

Yesterday, kindda held up at werk and I left early coz of besties and galfren!! Damn it!! Dun do it often ok ladies!! It's bad for my 'health' at werk!! Hahaha!! I've been a good gal in the office and my bosses knows that! Wuuhuuu~ So that's y when I asked my Director yesterday if I could go back a lil early, amazingly his answer was... "Yeah sure dear, go, it's alright!!"... Aper lagikkkkkkkk....... Hahahahaha! But I'm not gonna be an opporcunist like some people ok!! Lolz~

Ok, let me declare, last evening, I think I've made STARBUCKS officially rich! Kanasai!! Met besties and galfren at our normal chill out Starbucks, den went all the way to Novena to meet couzzie at 8pm.. Went to Utd Square awile for a window shopping session, but ended up I went to GUESS KIDS shop and bought for my lil dearie niece a top and a set of bibs for her...!! This month alone I think I've bought for her 3 sets of tops already! Bro has been reminding me not to waste money too much.. Almost bought a GUCCI's baby shoes for her... Hang on! I'm not tryin pamper her with these stuffs and neither am I trying to boast ard here aittes! Even without these gifts from me, and ma parents, lemme be very honest to you, the kepo² ones here, I think my bro and sister in law can afford it themselves!!! These are all the wealth we all can get with money in this world, but wad's important is the wealth that we need to achieve in our aftermath aittes! But my bro is the wise money spender sort of person, and i'm a total wrecked in financial strategy boii!! I'm being honest here!! And my bro was already nagging at me! Thanks arr bro!! He says to spent it wisely and DQ is still a baby, lavishing her with all these is not necessary he said! Pheww... Poor aunty, get scolding for nutthing! Anw, I dun care... For my DQ, anytime babeh!! Hahahahah! Alrighty, I had a blast talking and cracking silly jokes with couzzie!! A night full of anticipation i must say... After some lil shopping session, AGAIN, we went to the Starbucks!! Another $15++ spent!! Half way thru our conversation, couzzin went to get another cuppa HOT CHOCS... So even chill out for coffee at all these coffee chains can be costly! I think if i'm married and have a house of my own, I'll just call ma ladies down to ma crib for a coffee session instead!!! So ladies, my house warming gifts you know wad to get for me aittes... A turbo coffe mixer just like the ones in those coffee chains aittes!! Wehehahahahah!! *advanced planning is definately a great deal*...... And I reach home almost midnight..! Lucky my shoes has not turned into a glass yet seh! Lolz~ Got a call from a pal later, and we're talking abt the same ol chap!! He happen to appear again!! Just like 'biskot oreo.. Jap ada, jap takda'!! Anw, was being told that he has a problem and came looking for my pal.. Reconcile?! Haizz~ i dunnoe, but i guess it's gonna be a waste of his time! Once bitten, twice shy hunney! And oppsss, sorry dear, We're Bitches with Brains aittes! And I & Myra am definately not gonna look back.. Coz our hearts are STONNED! Lost of speech oready!! And u are non of my concern anymore! Seriously, I'm losing all kindda hopes and prayers for this chap! You're almost erased!! 95% completed!! hahahah!!

Wokaays then... Gotta clear of my work now... See ya again and till da next episode... I love you.. Dinner soon ok!! *ehem*!! *muacks*

2007-07-15T15:30:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

It's SUNDAY!!! And..... to my dearest Sister In Law.... Just for you sis.....

2007-07-14T13:31:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Howwddyy! It's weekends... And yeah.... I'm like supposed to go sumwhere but ended up at home... Grandma was here and went to fetch her ealier at my aunt's place...I guess yeah... I might be going out later in the evening.. or I might just chill around! Anw, tommorrow is sis-in-law's birthday.... And we've got plans to go out alreadyyyy.... Yippeee!

Can't wait for my holidays.. Am desperately needing one soon... And yeah! Zurich.. will see ya soon!! Yipppeeeeeeee~~~
Alrighty, to the 'faithful' viewers... Last night went to chill with besties & Naz... And together with a buddy and her besties.. Last minute meet up always happen! Well, indeed the meet up turns out to be an "emotionally confession" topics discussed.. Plus some silly willy jokes cracks... and not forgetting, some flicks of cam-whoring!! And after last night eh, I think that Za (Ayu's besties) & Mira (My besties.. Cehh, tanak kalah eh!!) are fitted to be placed in one house together and I shall do the honor of bringin the house down for them both!!! Mulot tak sensored! Anw we all have had our fair share of 'speech' there! Except for Nazi, coz she's most of the time making 'long distance' calls!! If not, she busy writing 'minutes' of our topics discussed i think, right onot Mira, Ayu & Za??!! Nemind Nazi 'campur' lah.. remember??! Unlike si dektu...Pure K.K!! Hahahahaha!! *Ok stop it*
Honestly, I must say that I'm pretty shocked to hear certain stuffs being mentioned, but I just dunnoe how to react to it already. Guess i'm immune to it.. Dah jadi cam manusia tak berperasaan lah! Mira pun dah tak kuasa! Kita ngah tunggu je detik2 tok counter strike!! Tu time satu ORCHARD Mira ngan si Za combine pekik! Dah ada 'chin-gay' performance lak nanti!! Road block sini sana sehh!! wakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakakka!!!! Lolz!!
And yes gal, we all EXPECTED! Anw, what happens behind those close doors are just better off left unsaid! I'm not thoz typical spicies and neither are WE all! Empty vessels makes the most noise... Now I'm also thinking of someone else in mind besides that idiot! Well as we've discussed last night, these are the people tat I would STRONGLY RECOMMEND to hear the song '2x5 by AhliFiqir'... It so~ SUITS them lor... Attention seeker that hungers for a minute of affection mahh... Yealah, now got 'pals' that u think can 'understands' and support you! Like as if we dun know how long can all these dramas last?! Pls remember, these 'pals' of yours once bitched about u, ur life and ur family too aittes! We'll see lah who will get the last laugh wokkay!. Just dun pretend to be SMART when your stupidity shows clearly, dun pretend to be a SAINT, coz we're all a SINNER, and dun pretend to say you love and care for us, coz for all we know, you're BITCHING about us right now! If u dun believe in having 'true friends'... than believe me, you're such a bored human!! Read my lips!! You're a low life human dat MISSED so much serenity and love coming from another human called "FRIENDS"...! I dun talk as thou I'm good, but I know for a fact that I dun open my mouth unnecessarily like 'U'.. and even if I do, i'm still a sane woman that remembers what I utter! Mulot lau tak reti jaga eh, asyik nak mencecih ajer and mengumpat kan...Where ever you go, or who ever you are with, you can never tastes the sincerity of it all coz you are a big fat actor/actress yourself! Trust me on this coz it's PROVEN!!!! Good enuff lah, even thou we talked alot and most of the time we talk craps, we dun even have the time to talk about you! Even 'if' we talked, it's all FACTS! We're a tough chicks aittees, ain't easy bringing us down you foe & hoe!!! Ahakzz!! **Sapa makan cili, dia rasa pedas eh.. yg nak 'feeling' terasa tu, gasaklah! Yang reporter dan paparazzi sambilan yg suker nah nak amik tau hal ehwal I dan kawan² I nie, silakan lah eh!! Kesian korang, hidup makan sumpah orang aja! Nauzubillah.... *Ishk* Malas ah nak kuasa lagik!!**

Oriteyyyy! I dun really need no one else coz I have so much love from my family, besties and frens...! For now, Im just gonna sit here and observed! Those 'emotional' bastards can carry on bitching, for I dun nibble... whutthadilly ya'll!!! Thank you God for your endless blessings.. Thou it's not an easy road for me to go thru', I know for a fact that I've got you... Love you all and see ya around!!.... *muacks, muacks, muacks*

P.S: Pictures otw... AND HERE IT COMES.....

2007-07-12T14:23:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Just am so looking forward for yet another weekends!!! Hip Hip hurray!! Besties coming to my office today!! Chillin' and later off for a dinner with *ehem*... Hahahahahah!! Well, I've finally submitted the "contest" just awile ago... Hopefully I'll get it!! *Finger's crossed*

Well, I have a date this Saturday noon to go with Busu for a meeting with the GM of Tepak Sireh's Restaurant... It's for her wedding!! I'm so happy for her and I'll pray that this marriage works and lasts till eternity! Insya Allah... Anw, Busu is only making a small function/ wedding reception for her family & "immediate" close frens only!! And of course, I'm in da lists....!! Yippee!!

Well as for today, current, and at this point of time.. I'm just chillin... Work has been hectic a lil these days, but I'm coping it well... Life been fine.. Everyday means a whole new chapter in my life... And currently, I'm so hoping that I got to see Ivy Queen!! Yeah ... For those whom have not known her, she's "DA QUEEN OF REGGAETON"....! Honestly, I'm not really a Reggaeton fanatics, but certain songs are groovy if ya nae wadda mean! Music is UNIVERSAL, and thus, I listen to all kindda songs fyi!! And I mean all kinds thou.... So count me out if you're the "passing trend" followers ar!! Orang dengar Hip Hop, dia pun nak dengar hip hop! Orang dengar techno, dia pun feeling cucuk² langit! Orang dengar balada, dia pun nak jugak...! BOSAN! BINGGIT! FED UP!! hahahahah!!!
Well, back to Ivy Queen, she's a mixture of rap, reggae and dancehall elements... A HOT LATINA lady i must admit!! Was participating in her webbie contest and hopefully, I'll stand a chance to catch her Tour @ Dallas!!! *Musim menang tics lah*.... So I shall not break the lucky chain aittes... Hahahahahahahahah!! Hmmm.... wad else to type eh? Uh yeah!!!! Sumthing just struck my mind this afternoon! And yeah, you are MOST WELCOME to comment on my shout out box if you want too!

First up, I was really wondering and am still wondering hard enuff right now infact.. lolz... How are we supposed to deal with ungrateful "bastards" yeah? Opppss sorry, forgive my vocabs.. but that a good choice of words to describe them i must say! Haha! Firstly, I've dealt with these sorts of people before! I've seen it happening under ma nose... I've witness betrayal steps away from me! Gosh!! The world can be mean, but we humans are here to change the fate of it right? Seriously, I just can't have the right answer to this! You see nice women, but their mens are an a******! You'll see great man, but their lady are such a B****! Learn to be appreciative, and we'll be able to make a change...
To 'those' MEN, please get some life. Be a man with dignity. Dun eva tarnished your own pride coz you'll lose it one day! To 'those' women, ladies.. take good care of yourself... Never be ungrateful. Keep you pride up high coz dats all we've got! Always be contented with wat u have.. Dun be such a cheap-o... Never allow anyone to bring you down, ever!!

I think I dun need to a celebrity or someone famous... Enuff gossips, bitching and betrayal seen, heard and gone thru... Well people, at the end of the day, I'm still a normal human being, earning to make a living, making mistakes to learn new things, striving to be a filial daughter, women and friends to all... And I'll end up to HIM, the place where I belong... Till then, i'm still struggling thru all these dramas and staying grounded just to make it one day, insya allah.... Catch up soon... *muacks*

2007-07-11T17:08:00.001+08:00

*Peace be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Sorry for being a lil slack in my bloggie! To those whom are always eager to catch up with my updates, i suggest u beeetttccchhh and hoeeeezzzz take a breather for a moment! I'm not been great... Infact the idiot STRIKES back!! beyond my tolerance level and thus I guess I'll have to take the next move! Lean Back a lil for now...

Oh yeah! I'm so happy that Roslan & Maiya went thru to the finals... Yeah, d Anugerah contestants.... They are good... Both live and in TV... hahahaa!!!
I'm goin to catch up with besties and couzzie very soon too.. Prolly this weekend..

Alrighty.. I'm logging off now... Goin back to chill and sleep....

*muacks*

2007-07-09T10:15:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

It's Monday..... Again..... Pheeeww~!!!!!
As usual, I had a great weekends... It started out with a lil 'tiring' shooping spree with my galfren Alin "sepetz" wanting to find her tops for the night out session.. Btw Happy Belated Birthday Liza!! Sorry I can't join you gals coz I'm damn shagged lah! Following Alin go shopping is enuff for me to end the day!! Hahahahahaha!! Anw, great to meet them that Friday... And not meeting another galpal of mine Ms Nadia for awile, I must say that she shed weight sia... Looking fine there! Came back... slagged ard in ma best while on the phone with couzzie... Well, was catching up with couzzie on the latest updates.... She never fails to offer me her sincere listening ears...! Infact she too was aggitated with the 'indecent behaviour' that someone has been up too! Couz was also telling me that we should catch up soon for coffee with besties...! I think i must be too engrosed talking to couzzie that I didnt even realised that I had an incoming call from besties...! Korang nie tak leh ngok gue senang kah huh?! Return besties a call and she says that she was actually waiting for her hubby to come back earlier on, but when I return her call, the hubby was back liao... Infact had his shower!! Wwwuuuhhuuu!! Sorry ah babe!! Hahahahha!! Talk for awile and off to sleep.... But again I cant sleep!! Infact wee hours of the morning, i was awaken suddenly by.......... Let's just rest it here! Ahakzzz!!

Weekends was great...! I woke up at 1pm on Saturday!! Yahooo!! Got ready to go out with my family.... Went visiting my aunt's new crib, then went to buy stuffs for raya at Arab St and went Kg Glam for the wadeva the carnival was!! Then went to get my sista an Apple MP3, went to order some food for today's kenduri and went back home.... MY TRIPLET's sisters Birthday yesterday! Simple celebration at home... Mummy cooked Tom Yam Yam Sennggg~~! Actually we plan to go JB to celebrate my sisters birthday.. But daddy doesn't want too coz their 'precious heartthrobe' dun have a passport yet!! Yeah my lil Ms DQ! I asked my bro as to why he didn't wanna make a passport for her, his answer was "SUPERB"... He dun intend to do for DQ one now! Too young! And wait got passport, confirm mesti nak merayap punya!! Wad an asnwer!! Hahahahah! But true lah, my bro is the sort that loves to travel and merayap! My sis in law too... That's y i guess they've got their reasons for not doing one for lil DQ! Good 'marketting' strategy here bro... Well done!! Keep it up!! Ahakz!! So Sunday was basically a chill at home session with family and my triplet's sisters birthday!

As I'm blogging now, there's actually a "kenduri" going on at my home.. Right now there's a lil sermon going on from my dad's religious teacher... And I'm taking this time off from the kitchen to blog! Goodness~ bad huh?! Imagine blogging in the kitchen?! Try that out!! Hahaha!! Not recommended but it's worth a shot ya noe! ;)Alrighty.... I'll catch up with you peepz again aittes!! *muacks*

2007-07-06T16:44:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Yaccckkkaadddyyyy yaaaaccckkk!! It's Friday!!! And I'm so looking forward for the weekends... Gotta catch up on my sleep, cleaning up my room, spending time with the love ones.... My lil triplets sister's birthday.... That's the anxiety I have now for this weekend!!

Yesterday wasn't a great day for me, not even one of the best days to go by, BUT I thanked the Almighty for making me learn something about these whole messed up situation! Despite the fact that you guys read my previous entry, this whole situation bothers me tremendously...It super affects me... But Alhamdulillah, I've managed to pull thru with so much love from besties and pals... Ok, the outcome of the situation was: I manageD to talk to him, but as usual, typical of him, he denied the whole situation! Need I say more here?! I think I shall skip! His topic is a boredom and it's just useless to talk to humans without brains! Silly toad u~~!!

Besties, Liza and Sepet now are already at my office... We're goin off for a coffee chill session at our usual tranquil spot! But I think there will be a slight change of plans... I must admit that I need a breather now.... So packed places are out of my mind.. Besides, I just dun wanna bump into anyone that I'm so NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO MEET! I've just got this "lil instinct" that if I'm not at a right place, I'm bound to meet someone.. Someone I least expects to see... My head's spinnin'... My cough is getting worse and I pray that I won't fall sick over the weekends... I'm just gonna get some rest...

Till you hear from me again....

2007-07-05T15:07:00.000+08:00

2007-07-05T11:15:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

Phhheeewww~ How do I start now?! Today it's just not the day for me... I just hate it when the day has to begin with a sour start... I HATE IT!!! Can I turn back the time pls...??! I've actually found out something really ridiculous that bugged me since 7am in the morning... I was pretty much still asleep when I was awaken by a call... Barely awake, i answered the call... And the nuisance caller just strikes back again.. In the wee hour of the morning around 2+am, he actually called, but prolly I was fast asleep that I didnt even hear it rang. And he left me a voice mail with those "stopid irritating sounds"... I even let besties and galfren to hear them... And guess wad, this morning when I got the call, I found out that it was the number was reflected?! And it's like a deja-vu for me coz it caught me by suprised that the calls was made by sumone I knew... And furk.. I am furking dissapointed in HIM!!.... Never did i expect it to come from a person like him... Get yourself a life lah pls! I thought u've already found someone to replace those innocent souls u've hurt badly... Then why are u still acting and behaving like a low life jerk eh?! Y are u down on your knees to people that you've bitched about so much?! Smart rite?! Easy to talked about people's shit and even jeopardized their integrity rite, till u forgot that you are even worst then those low life 'bitches' & 'frens' tat you've talked about! AND..... I think seriously you must have forgotten to activate your "private number" lah dude.. U STUPID ASSHOLE!!!

On the second thought, again, I believe in Karma... I dun pretend to be a SAINT coz I know I'm a SINNER!! I dun manipulate my way out!! I've got my own pride and dignity to take care off, hence I dun bother about others!! I dun beg and hunger for LOVE coz I've got so much and infact loads of them till i'm over-whelmed!! I'm a lil different from the "OTHER BITCHES" that you've bitched about if you know wadda mean.. And i'm sure you do! Ahakz!! Well dude.... God's always GREAT and FAIR!!! YES INDEED!!!.. He won't let his people suffer for no reasons you see... He'll show you what's life really is!! So dude, pls... you're not as SMART as you think you are... Ur STUPIDITY outshines with a gusto...!! HEAR ME!! Hahahahah! If u are innocent, and if you say u wasn't the one, and you 'accidentally dialled' my numba coz you are about to go to work and was on a bike... Y is that so that out of so many numbers in your contact lists it strucks at my number? U've got the skill and time in the world to be on a bike and scroll to my number issits and say it's tersalah tekan?! Y is that when I call u back u off your mobile phone?! Y is that when I message you u can reply?! But certain messages you don't??! Pardon me, i've gotta say this in my mother tongue language coz I think he understands better in Malay!! ... "Jerk, i'm not born yesterday ok!! Nie macam peh permainan eh aku dah lali tau babe! Aku tak sebodoh kau, jadi jgn samakan aku ngan kau ok.. Selisih.. Sepandai tupai melompat, akhirnya kebodohan kau amat terserlah...Kau gugur dalam permainan kau sendiri lah eh! Tolong lah, kau nie diciptakan sebagai manusia yg dikurniakan cukup sifat seh... Pakai otak lau nak buat sesuatu faham?! Fikir... Otak tu jgn letak pat Jubz arr pls.." Ooooppsss! Sorry lah people... I'm just freaking upset with this whole situation and thus, please forgive the verbs and vocabs that i'm using..!! He's becoming a pests now!! To the 'ladies' that's feeling me, all I can say is good luck hunneys!!!

Alright... I'm not gonna continue coz im bursting of anger just like a ticking bomb!!! See ya around!!

PS: TO HIM!!!!

"I'm BIG, FAT & UGLY, BUT I'M SUPRISED YOU STILL LOVE ME!!".... Not bad huh...~~ ;)

2007-07-04T17:21:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

I'm backkkkkk!!!!!!!! Tired like hell sehh..... And yeah... went to watch Anugerah Show last nite with besties... We sincerely didn't enjoyed the show, but we had fun laughing on things that's happening around the vacinity... Instead of MyRa misbehaving, it ended up that I was the one MIS+BEHAVE+ING... Hahahah! Honestly, the contestants i felt, not all of them deserves to be in the semi-finals... Some was there based on "seasonal popularity" i guess! BUT AFTER THE END OF THE SHOW.... ROSLAN & MYA WILL GET OUR VOTES!! Anw, I managed to date her for dinner/supper @ Simpang Bedok right after the show... Damn it!! The taxi fare to and fro coz us appx $40!!! I think I shall continue blogging tommorrow coz BESTIES INVADED THE OFFICE AGAIN TODAY!!!!!! Anw, i shall let the pictures do the talking.... Till then, catch up tommorrow... (psstt: when besties NOT IN MY OFFICE!).. Till then I can't blog in PEACE.... Arrgggghhhhhh~~~~

Continuation:
While I was busy uploading the pictures for my blog... Myra was already having her 'taste' of my cozzyyyyy sofa.... And guess wad??!! She fell asleep and snoring summore... Must be shagged huh gal... Hahahahahahhahhahah!! Now i'm left in peace to blog... wakakkakakakakakakkak!! Catch up soon.... *muacks*

2007-07-03T14:41:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

I'm truly sorry for not updating my blog for the past few days...
I'm just so not in the right mood for blogging...
Probably because I'm too exhausted...
Not been getting enuff rest...
Lemme start off with the itenaries that I had over the weekends....

FRIDAY!

Despite being lazy, I still went to meet the rest of the folks for a night out session... It was a wet friday and I had difficulties in getting a cab at my place, as a result, I was late... I'm like supposed to be there at 9.20pm, but I reached only an hour later... Sorry folks! There's no cab and even I tried to call for a cab, but it's to no avail...! Lucky thing, I didn't drive, if not... hahahah!! Me and couzzie didn't go for the "makan session" sponsored by Pak Busu coz we've both made prior arrangements to meet up... Met couzzies and her 2 besties, Chippo Kambing and klans and not forgetting my dear Mr Glory Praka and his guys... There was like 15 of us in the club and yeah, we have our fair share of fun! Went back almost 3.30am and I couldn't sleep... Only managed to dozed off around 5am... Shruggsss!!

SATURDAY!

Woke up early... And got ready to go out with my lil sisters... Intended to get them their birthday pressies... And yeah the GST $ is out!! Please, the amount I got was pathetic!! Fish~ I think we pay more taxes than usual and yet the sum we got was horrendous! It's NOT that i'm being unreasonable or unappreciative, but seriously, I find it so ridiculous... Anw, let's not get 'politically' worked up here aittes!!
Me and triplets left for Bugis... And barely an hour there, one of my sister wanna go back coz she's not feeling well.. Damn! And parking for barely an hour. I've got to pay like $2.30... Ripped off sehhhh!! Sent 2 of my sisters back and me and another sis went to Tampines to shop instead... Got wad I wanted, bought some stuffs for them too and for my beloved DQ... She was at my crib actually and she came in d midst of me getting ready to go out... Anw, went back home, played with DQ and went she left, Chippo called me up, hang on the phone with him till about 2am and I've gotta end the conversation coz I was freaking tired... Next: DREAMLAND!!

SUNDAY!

Woke up ard 10++am, managed to catch Anugerah repeat telecast, then got ready for a wedding invitation that I HAVE TO ATTEND! Grrrr... It was dad's causin's daughter.. Related family members and so,I dun hv a choice to skip them! Ahakzz~
Went there around noon stayed till about 2++pm and went back to change and me and family left for JB... First thing when I reached Angsana, I went to re-vamp my hair.. Hahaha! I got it highlighted! A lil 'too' blonde i must say! Not the actual colour that I wanted, but it's done and it CAN'T be undone... Grrrr~! Bought some stuffs there too for myself and bought all of my sisters some things too.. I spent a bomb already without realising! Fishhhhhh!! Now, i'm on a strict spending limits! hahahahaahhahahahah! The thing I hate about going JB is the traffic congestions....To and fro, it was a bad situation... In which it resulted to reaching home almost 1am in the morning! And.... I'm werking the day after... Dammmmitt!! AGAIN RIGHT AFTER THAT: DREAMLAND!!!!

MONDAY!

Workkkkkkkk~~!! Bosses are outstation, so practically, only me and my director is in the office. But he left early for a meeting and some stuffs... And I'm OFFICIALLY ALONE in the office..! Boreeeeddddd~~~ *yawn*.... Lucky thing I've got some stuffs to settle, so that keeps me occupied... Hahhaah! Left for home ard 7+pm and when I reached home, my secondary skolmate called up for some stuffs as he's wanting to buy a GUCCI bag.. Right after that, watch tv, read magazines and.... DREAMLAND HERE I COME AGAIN!!!!

And today, At the office alone again... Director is having his ROM... I got the IT technician to consolidate the reports that been having alot of errors lately... My PC is also weird thses days, thus i get them to rectify the probbies... And she/he took like 2+++ hours to do that!! Gosh~
Later on, gonna watch Anugerah at MediaCorp coz besties got 2 tickets, so she brought me along... Honestly, I've not been keeping up with the talent show and besties is supposed to go with her hubby, but her hubby has made initial plans with his pals for a 'work out' session... So I'm goin with her...She has been bugging me from morning tau... Tak habis² ngan lawak merepek kita dua seh!! Anw, she never fails to make my day, but sumtimes hor... as usual lah, if she starts her nonsense, it keeps going on and on... HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA!! Myra, I noe you're reading this... I Lurp u deep² & many² lah, but can u do me a favour??!! STOP calling my office can?! Wahliaoz.... "I dun care, in 5mins i call you back again ok!"... PENAT tau!! PENAT!! :)

So that's practically it... Oh yeah, by the way, hey jerk, get your self some life will you? Stop calling me and being a nuisance can!!! I've never come across a "MAN" that eats his own feaces back after spitting and shitting on it! you're indeed a ONE OF A KIND BREED!! Stop it!! You're not like this before.. Infact you're so much better off and well taken care off by US!! So why the sudden change??! I wouldn't even wanna know for now... Save it! Not interested! Anw, your 3 bomb-squad ladies just wanna tell you that thou distance separates and memories fades, our prayers still goes out to you.. We hope you've learn your lesson, we hope you'll change, we hope that you could deserve a better off woman, we hope you wont be a dissed human, we hope you will stop eating on your unfaithful & manipulating words and we hope we won't see you tumble on you knees again for your own game!!! WE CAN ONLY HOPE, BUT YOU ARE THE ONE TO FULFILL IT understand????!!!!....For your reference, you know that we do care for you 'initially', but WE'RE SO TOTALLY OVER YOU!!! And for me dude, I'm not turning into the past.. I'm glad my besties (MyRa) and my dearies (DiVa & Couzzie) and my hunneys (DA REST) are always there for me when YOU almost drive me CRAZY! So get yaself some "true" friends that not only laugh the day away with you, but also those whom will wipe off your tears every single seconds with you.. THE NUMBER OF FRIENDS YOU HAVE DOES NOT MAKE ANY SIGNIFICANCE IN LIFE! REMEMBER THAT!! IT'S THE HANDFUL LOT THAT STICKS WITH YOU ARE THOSE YOU POOSSED, AND IT'S TO BE TREASURED!! And PLEASE, stay away from me!!! Thank you!!

Alrighhhttt, i think i've gotta stop till here... I'll be back with more updates so stay tuned!!! *muacks*

2007-06-28T16:05:00.001+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

I'm seriously freaking tired...
I'm sleepy right at this very moment...
I'm giving myself another 3hours...
I'm gonna dozed off anytime soon...
I'm indulging myslef on food to keep me awake...
I'm HAPPY, CONTENTED AND AT MY UPMOST SPIRIT now... (Ahakz!)

Well, here it goes, yeah~ I know i didn't updae my blog yesterday... (To my 'faithful readers', i'm back!)I was so not in the mood yesterday! But the moment the clock struck 6pm, the anxiety just burst up! I was so looking forward for the Rihanna's Showcase... Mira has been the most eager person amongst us lot... Hahaha!

Initially, i couldn't felt how Mira felt, but the moment I met her at the entrance of St James, I must admit that I think i got more excited then her! Honestly, excited not because of winning the tickets, but excited coz I actually am entering a club with my besties after '2 freaking years' ago... And the moment I saw her dance, I melted! She was like telling us that she may lost her grovvy moves coz of the long break, but I'M TELLING YOU PEOPLE NOW, SHE HASN'T!!! The show was ok, I so enjoyed performances from SleeQ and the Rihanna Contest Participants! And yippe... the gal which all of us were supporting won!! Do us proud baby, show Rihanna some 'zapin' moves aittes!! Hahahahah! And yeah, thanks to Lini, she went to Imran and ask to take picture with us... Yeaaaahhhuu.... When I saw him in the club, I was already telling my gals that If he's really gonna sing tonite and especially the "Compromise" song, I dun givva shit what's gonna happen! I'm gonna sit at the platform in the middle of the stage and adore his song till the end...! But grrr, he didn't sing!!! So that saves me from creating a fool outta myself... Heheheh!

Alright,in short, I HAD GREAT FUN AND SPEND GREAT TIMES with my besties, galfren and couzzie! Well, spectators, they say the a picture paints a thousand words and thus.... Just take a look at the pictures aittes! I've got like half an hour before my working hour ends and I've yet to get confirmation from my Thailand and China Counterparts! I wanna sleep lah... So pls, make it fast guys!! I wanna go home....
To my ladies (3 stooges).... Hell yeah, I'm missing every single bit of him... He's like everywhere in my flashbacks and visions... I hope he knew I miss him too... I hope he realised it before it's running late... I hope he could fit in my gallery... I hope he made it someday, somehow, sumwhere.... Though it's hard for me to let him go, I hope he feel into a good hands, and I definately hope he's back in my arms... To be Continued.... I'm super lazzzzzzyyyyyyyy!!!

2007-06-26T14:08:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dearest Readers,

I'm truly sorry for not being able to update my blog for the past few days! Weekends was packed coz my dear couzzie's wedding. I must admit that thou' i'm pretty tired but it's all for a good. A worth it experience. Couz wedding went great and i personally have to thanked each and every members and pals from the G2C Club Singapore for their support and participation to convoy my dear couz from his crib to wifey's crib and back to his house... The G2C family's photo will be published in the forum soon aittes! I seriously didn't get a chance to meet every single member on that particular day, to those i didn't acknowledge, i'm sorry, but anw thank you for your presence! On behalf of the bride and groom, thank you!! I was pretty suprised coz some of them i've knew way before this.. And even to bumped into my long lost galfren was splendid!!! Her hubby is a member of the club and hence she particiapted... She's now a proud momma of a cute & hansem baby boy!!! Phheeww Aisha (i noe u will read this), that makes me realised that I'm getting really old sooner than I ever expected! Hahahaha! *BANG*

Anw, who cares huh?! Enjoy my single-hood while stocks last!! Dat's it!! Hahahahahah! Also,i've gotta thanked "Ayam" (Bro's good buddy) for making his way down to assist in leading the convoys! Well, he & my bro co-incidentally drives the same MAKE, MODEL & COLOUR car... Hence, it was a last minute idea that they will co-lead the convoys of Gen 2! Actually, supposedly, it was supposed to be a Gen 2 to lead the whole batallion, followed by 2 pengapit cars, the wedding car, then the MAZDA 3's (bro & ayam's car) and a Mazda 2 (Kak Lin & Abg Hairul's car) to lead the rest of the 30 Gen 2 cars convoys.... BUT DAMN!! There was a lil' glinch coz I freaking dun realised that we're creating a huge massive jam from the carpark all the way to the highway @ TPE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Suker hati & steady pom-pi-pi aja dorang tahan keta from entering the highway!! Mampus!!! Nie kalau "DATUK" nampak, mau berani jawap ajer arr... GASAK!!!!! Janji semua happy lorrr...!!! YAKIN MAU LEBIH dok!!! Wakakakakaka!! Imagine arr 36 cars in all.... Gosh~~ Anw, that makes this whole thingy a great memoirs for all of us huh!! Anw, I & Alin was in Ayam's car and we and my bro car was trying our very best to get Abg Hairul to join the front leads, but he and his car was no where to be found!!! Rupanya bcoz of his task as a video-man on that particular day, Abg Dzul drove his car and he didnt join the fronters coz he wanna capture the moments in his Vid-cam lah!! His car was way infront of EVERYONE ELSE!! ;) Kita ada cari him, rupanya he's got a task!! HAHAHAHAHAH!!! Another comm-breakdown!! But all i can say now is that IT ALL WENT GREAT & WE HAD LOADS OF FUN! AND I'm like sweating all over just to ensure that the cars are form up!! phewwww~~~~ Tissues all over ma face... Buruk-ness!! Hahahah!!

Anw, everything went just fine... and we left Pak Busu's house late too... Sum family tradition going on lah! Hahahha! Straight head to bathroom when i reach home, bathe, and zooooommmmmmmm........ SLEEP! Next day had to work summore....!! So since I was still tired, I didn't blog lah yesterday!
Well, a pal of mine called me yesterday otw home from werk to inform me that he heard of something like this particular person is starting to become a crap and starts his old game & shits again & again!! I told him that I'm the LEAST INTERESTED PERSON to wanna know about his well-beings! I'm NOT BOTHERED EVEN!! He told me that I need to at least give him a chance and a thinker and just be with this person to make sure this person is on the right track..! WTF???!! I've got a LIFE ok! I've got FAMILY to look after! I've got FRIENDS to catch up with! I've got other WORK to do! So I dun think I can afford to squeeze in even a drip of my time or effort for him! He's got a life wad?! He too got frens wad?! He's smart with his own manipulation wad?! PLAYA WAKRAK!! So I ain't gonna be even an inch near him yet alone you asking me to guide him!! Ishk!! That shows how much a "MAN" he can be huh?! A WOMAN LEADING A MAN?! You must be kiddin' la bro! I'm SOooo da 'BACK TO BASICS' kidda gal and thus, I've got no time and penny to ENTERTAIN this bull-shitting aittes! Nuff' said!!

Ok, enuff of this idiotic piece of shit details..... I'm so looooOOKKKkkkiiinnGGG forwarD for the Rihanna Showcase tommorrow with ma babes!!! More HOT & SPICY HAPPENNINGS will be updated for your viewing pleasure.... Hahhahaha! Especially for those 'mina-H(s) & ma-T(s) kay-poh(s)' whom I seriously believe they've got a deprived childhood or either a deprived life!!! Ooooppppssss!!! Do I Look Like I Care!! Alrighty peepz.... I'll catch up with you guys again aittes!!

A glimpse of couzin Shaiful's wedding convoys! More pics will be uploaded soon!

2007-06-22T17:02:00.000+08:00

Dear Readers,

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO BLOG THIS DOWN!!!!!! I really do... The urge is just so over-whelming... It's gushing down like an adrenalin rush....
I'm SO IN LOVE WITH.... The song called "Compromise" by our very own local talent... Mr Imran Ajmain....!

Kudos to him for having and producing great songs in his album... Seriously, I love all of his song boii... Phheeww~ Used to met him in gigs back in "those ol' skool days"... Chatted with him in MIRC.. He's known as Mr POSTO fyi! Hahaha!! Classic!! But dat's all aside, I simply love his song especially GHAIBMU & COMPROMISE! Let me confessed, I've been listening to his song for like freaking 10 times already today! And more to come... hahahahahahah!! And now, I've put up that song in ma blog... To those whom have not heard of him, you've gotta check this man out aittes! Imran, biggup for ya swell job and your humble persevereance paid off indeed!!!! Please... have more of it aittes bro!! Ang yeah, i'm freaking searching for the lyrics and it seems impossible... But lean back a lil'... when there's a wheel, there would definately be a way aitte!!!

IMRAN AJMAIN

2007-06-22T16:43:00.000+08:00

* Peace Be Upon You *

Dear Readers,

Sorry for not apprearing yesterday.. Was pretty held up with some work and stuffs... Anw, I'm soooo~ looking forwad for this weekend! Yipee~~ My couzzie Shaiful Nizam is getting married... Congrats bro! May this blissful marriage be blessed always.. *amin* And also, I'm so looking forward for the Gen 2 Club Convoy! Seriously, I'm so happy that i've managed to get for him the convoys... Seriously.... And with also much help from himself too... Now the bride is even thinking of getting a media coberage to expose the people from the club... Hopefully you'll be able to get it bro! Anw, that's my pressie for you ok couzzie... Other pressies aso coming up!! Heheheh! So hang on!! I'm like a mama santa u noe.. wakakakak~

Special shout outs goes to the G2C Singapore memebers, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your great assistance and participation... Appreaciate all your time and effort in making this a success! Thank You & God Bless ya'll.. Please save the next convoys for my wedding ok!! Insya Allah!! Hahahah!

Alrighty, I'll catch up later on aittes... Meanwhile to the everyone reading ma stuffs....

2007-06-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

2007-06-20T10:07:00.000+08:00

*PEACE BE UPON YOU*

GoooooooD Morning EVERYONE!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHH!!!! I'm so happy right now.... Last night after blogging, I actually went ot my bedroom to sleep, but as usual, i've gotta read sumthing before going to bed. While reading and tuning in to Perfect 10 via my mobile, the DJ on duty was actually asking listeners to sent in a sms about why you like about Rihanna and you could stand a chance to win tixs to her showcase..! And I actually did sent. This was purely out of boredom that I did this... I didn't like her that much thou', but i kindda like her unique Bahamian voice and easy listening songs that she sang... AND.. in a lapse of 2 minutes after sending the sms, I've got a call from DJ Shan Wee and say that I've WON the TICKETS SHOWCASE!!!!!!!! SHOCKED, SPEECHLESS & I TREMBLE ON MY WORDS when he called me!!! Hahahahah!! I've WON MYSELF 4 TICKETS!! I basically telling the whole house about it!! Mummy had to tell me to lower down my voice coz it's already 12.45AM... HAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!! And I've told my couzzie Alin.. She was more excited than me! She even asked me, "Couz, so u're calling me at this hour to invite me along with you issit?!"... Steady jer eh! But yeah~ I'm definately gonna bring her!! Wanted to call besties, but I guess she must be asleep, so I only broke the news this morning on the way to werk... She too was eager... She was saying that i've gotta bring her! Even if her hubby mind, she'll ensure that he won't mind at all! Hahahaha! That's typical Mira if u wanna noe!! When she starts her nonsense, she won't stop!!! Hahahahah!! It's definately gonna be my gals night out! Me, couzzie (Alin), besties (Myra) & ma good galfren (Lynn)!!!

So, the showcase is next Wednesday @ St. James Power Station...!! Now..... The 'GOOD GIRLS GONE BAD".... Excited to catch her, and also excited coz it's been awile since I last did this with besties and she stepping into a club with me, it has been ages since... So RIHANNA... Here we come....... We'll GO BAD with you!!! ~Lolz~

Alrighty.... I'm making a come back soon... Coz right now... I've gotta do my werk...!!! Just to spice things up.. I've got these quote to share with you viewers whom is always contemplating on other people's life and not of your own! To them, please get some life! We ain't angels ourselves, we ain't perfect either, but the least I or WE could do is to change the way we wrote our life's journey! Before talking and giving comments, please do some self-reflection first aittes! Just sit down and ponder, why are u not aprreciated by other souls?! Why are you always being diss-eD by frens?! Why are you not important in sumone's life?! Is there something that's hindering you?! Is there sumthing just not RIGHT with you?! Are you really WORTH & DESERVE much kindness from others?!

AGAIN, PLEASE READ MY SENTENCE CAREFULLY & LEMME REPEAT THIS:-

I AIN'T an ANGEL myself!
I AIN'T near to ANY PERFECTION even!
I'm a normal typical girl who DOES mistakes too!
I'm CONSTANTLY LEARNING from my past MISTAKES and SUCCESS!
I DO HAVE A BESTFREIND!
I DO HAVE BUDDIES & ACCQUAINTANCES!
I AM BLESSED WITH GOOD WISDOM!
I AM BLESSSED WITH SO MUCH LOVE FROM FAMILY & FRENS!
I AM OBSESSED with little things in Life!
I AM a GREAT worrier!
I STILL UPHOLD my FAITH & RELIGION thou at timeS I may neglect!
I DON'T BITCH unLess she's a BITCH!
I Do hurt PEOPLE at times Either INTENTIONALLY OR UNINTENTIONALLY!
I DON'T go around telling taleS!
I DUN PRETEND TO BE A SAINT!
I REALISED THAT I'VE MADE HUGE GRAVE SINS!
I'M DEFINATELY NOT A TWO-HEADED MORONS!
I DO BELIEVE IN KARMA!
I DON'T LIVE TO PLEASE YOU!
I RATHER SING IT OUT LOUD THEN SHOUT!
I DON'T BELIEVE GOING AROUNDN TELLING OTHERS HOW WONDERFUL I AM AS A PERSON!
I DO BELIEVE IN RETRIBUTION!
AND DEFINATELY, AGAIN, I'M JUST BEING MYSELF HERE! LOVE ME OR HATE ME, I dun givva S***! Coz for all I know, I'm the authour to the story of my LIFE & I'll illustrate those pictures myself!! I dun need anyone to be the EDITOR of my journey coz at the end of the day, it's to HIM i'll return to, so let HIM & MY PARENTS do the honour of editting them! Thank You!
And to those whom LOVES me for who I really am, I LOVE YOU EVEN MORE! And for those who's not pleased with my appreance in this world, MAY GOD BLESSED YOU! *Amin*

Till then, surround yourself with positive people ok! Insya Allah, you'll be more directionally prehended of your journey! *muaaccckkksss*

Signing of with so much love and prayers;
>>:::QEESHA:::<<

2007-06-19T22:24:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Dear Readers,

I was pretty busy today at werk and i didn't have time to blog actually... But now, at my own crib, I kindda like try to squeeze in sumtime to update my blogs... I know, sum of them are so eager to know my updates... *ooppsss*

Anw, met besties after werk... So sweet of her to actually buy for me dinner and we're like supposed to eat and chill at my office, but big boss was still around.. And guess wad, we actually ate it in a nearby park opposite my werkplc. SO ROMANTIC! *bluek* But the thing that stop us from staying there any longer was the NYAMUK! Cheettt~ They we like biting us all over the place and even our faces was being 'attacked'... goshhh~~ Anw, we change our venue to Starbuck later on... Hahahah! Well, i've actually wanting to write on certain issues that I guess i can blog on. But letme see if I have the time ok! Tired lah!!! Looking at the PC screen for the whole day is not good for the eyesight ya noe! Ahakz~

Alrighty, here's the sneak peak at the DG cam dat I bought for daddy for his birthday cum father's day gift! Check this out....

SANYO E7 XACTI

LLYOD's SIGNATURE WATCH FROM MY LIL SISTERS

And my beloved bro and sis-in law and not forgetting my darling DQ treats us for dinner @ Al-Hamra Restaurant at Terminal One Changi Airport! The pizza was so cheeesssyyyy~ i lykke!!

Well, i'll upload more pictures soon.. And I'll have more topics to discussed too... Seriously i'm kindda freaking tired right now..! Exhausted would be the best word to describe myself now actually! Dad's turn to use the PC... His gonna starts his 'WORLD GAMING FEDERATION BATTLE' so he's already bugging me to log off! Hahahahahahah! Dat's my dad FYI... Anw, here's a picture of my mummy and dad that we've re-vamp! Me and my sisters actually insisted them to wear those stuffs and took a picture... How lovely right?! HOT, HIP COOL & HAPPENING okies!!! Take a look.....

MY BREATH, MY SOUL, MY LIFE, MY ONE & ONLY MUMMY & DADDY

2007-06-18T16:17:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Heeellllooooooooooooooo there faithful viewers!! Heheheeheh!! Hope you guys are doing fine as much as I am... I had a blastful weekends.... To start things off, on Friday itself, I meet my darling Myra... Actually we plan to have a coffee session, but ended up I drank Kopi "ka-tai" from the the kopitiam below my office unit... Hahahah! Had hot & cold drinks together with some cakes and buns.... Guess wad, Myra is the first soul to step into my ghotic office ya noe!! Yeah, it's nutthing suprising i noe, coz even my ol' werkplace islike hers.. Can u imagine, even the CEO of my previous co knows her?! Hahahaha!!! Dat's how close-knit we were, and we'll always be!! Insya-Allah!

As usual, she racky my entire office... And she became a 'porn star' too taking candid shots at my sofa... Hahahah! She even left me taking pictures of myself all alone while she watched the HIKMAH 3 movies from my PC... After all that, with some chit chat sessions, without both our knowledge, it was already 10pm... Got ready and left my office and we have a stroll back to the MRT stations and train ride home...
When I got home, after shower, i watched the last bit of APM '07, then watched this taiwan movie with my sis... Half way thru, i feel asleep.

SOME CANDID MOMENTS SHOTS FOR YOUR VIEW:

A brief of my Saturday:

I was awaken by a call from this 'human' at ard 10++am on Sat morning! Gosh... She has nutthing else to ask me from with all her so called favours... Everytime she called, sure wanna ask me for favours... I mean, I'm fine helping, but I ain't helping people whom are never appreciative and are always depending on others. I just shut them off! I told them that i can't offer any means of help anymore. Then as usual, being a DESPERATE HOUSEWIFE, she asked me to call my besties and ask if she can offer to help them... And I gave this person a straight NO on her face...! They can't just leave us ESPECIALLY ME alone sehh!!

Anw, went to get daddy's b'day gift at Sim Lim Square... He wanted a DG for his b'day... Actually i me and siblings really dunnoe why he wanna get a DG cam?! He says he's gonna use it for work, but let's see... Dad's got a handy cam and I do have a DG of my own... But yet, he wants for himself... Prolly he wanna get it for my lil sis, so he actually wants that for his b'day... Well dad, anything for you, no questions asked ok..! After all, we knew it's always for your children you prioritized.

SUNDAY:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY & HAPPY FATHER's DAY TO YOU TOO.... Yup! It's daddy's birthday... And we're gonna have dinner later at the airport while waiting for Arfah to arrive from Korea.. Her flight will be late! Hence, we're gonna have dinner without her. She told us not to wait for her too.. Anw, we'll have a make up session... Dad, i've actually written sumthing for you, but insya allah, i'll post it soon... Still finding the time to type it at my blog... Anw, we hope you had fun on your birthday thou it's a simple celebration... And thanks bro for the dinner treat! Hehehehee!

Alrighty, tonight another dinner session for the whole lot of us, but dad says tonight dinner is his treat... Yipee... Alrighty folks... See ya around ok.... Got work to do now.... *muacks*

PS: Dad, I LOVE YOU, no other words can describe how much i am thankful & grateful for every single thing that you've done for the family and especially me... No other souls can replace you dad.. My mentor, my idol, my life and my soul... Thank You!!

2007-06-15T09:54:00.000+08:00

Peace be Upon You

Wuuhuuuu! It's friday again... Another weekends ahead! Gosh~ It's rainning heavily right now.. Lucky I'm already in the office!! I guess it's gonna be wet the whole day huh?!

I'm just missing so many people right now!! Oh god~ I'm so much missing those people whom had made a significant mark in my life.. Especially those whom have departed... Well, this morning as I was doin my prayers, i kindda reminise and have all the flashbacks on these souls that was so dear to me.. My late babysitter, i called her "mak" (mom),... i just wish and pray that she's still around and breathing right now to see me being who I am today... I think in one way or another, I'll make them proud as to who I became today... As much as I've made my parents and family happy and proud, i think they too will fell the same way.. ;) But I can't turn back the time right?! The late Mak, Atok (her hubby) and the rest of their family are so attached to me! They pampered me and spoiled me when i was a little gal and they actually made me part of their family. Back then, when parents are out to werk, I was under their care and supervision... From a 3 months old baby to a 7 year old child... That's how long they took care of me. Even so when I'm no longer under their care coz I've already started schooling, I'll never forget them. They'll visit me at my home and if they missed me, they'll just drop by to see me... Every year, my whole family too will visit them during raya and it's a must! Now that Mak has passed on, Atuk became very sickly, and all the other siblings are having their own family. I so missed them... I missed my flesh & bllood grandma and grandpa that I've never get a chance to see them whilst they are still alive.... I missed those frens and pals that I've lost along the way, and sum even whom had passed on... And I miss my besties and family.... Gosh~!! Dad was telling me this morning that if I had dreamt of those i've longed and missed, the best thing i could do is to pray for them. I definately will do that Dad, thank u!! Despite all this amist, I'm just grateful to the AlMighty that I still have a wonderful and beloved family.. And having a besties that's always been there for me thru thick and thin, and in any forms of shapes that I was in.. Need I ask for more?? Nah, I dun think so... I'm just contented with everything that I've own right now... And soon to come, my CAR!!! Hahahahahahahah!! Ya noe, everything we do must have ambitions and dreams right??!! So hopefully, must much blessing for the ALMighty and families, I guess my dreams will and does comes true... Insya Allah!! ~LoLz~

Right now, I'm not gonna sit here and get myself depressed... Coz I'm not in any forms of depression.. It's just that this is another phase of our daily life... Till then, I'll catch up again later aittes!
Pssttt: I've kindda like this song.... Sing along with me aittes.... Hahahahah! Cheers!

LETTO
Sandaran Hati

yakinkah ku berdiri
di hempa tanpa tepi
bolehkah aku
mendengarmu

terkubur dalam emosi
tanpa bisa bersembunyi
aku dan nafasku
merindukanmu

terpuruk ku di sini
terangi dia yang sepi
dan ku tahu pasti
kau menemani

dalam hidupku
kesendirianku

teringat ku teringat
pada janjimu ku terikat
hanya sekejap ku berdiri
kulakukan sepenuh hati
peduli ku peduli
siang dan malam yang berganti
pedihku ini tak ada arti
jika kaulah sandatan hati
kaulah sandaran hati
sandaran hati

inikah yang kau mau
benarkah ini jalanmu
hanyalah engkau yang ku tuju
pegang erat tanganku
bimbing langkah kakiku
aku hilang arah
tanpa hadirmu
dalam gelapnya
malam hariku

2007-06-14T20:39:00.001+08:00

The love of my life... My dear hunney.... And I'm missing her every single seconds of the day.... Ms Dhiya Qistina in the house ya'LL!! :)

2007-06-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

It's Thursday and another day to go before we call for yet another weekends... Can't wait for the weekends as it's gonna be my beloved daddy's birthday and Father's Day!! And not forgetting, I need to catch up on my sleep!

Due to the irritance of the "mistery caller"... I babrely get a peaceful sleep! Last nite he strikes back, but this time he called 4 times only, comparing to the 20+++ calls before that! Hahahah! I think he's getting tired already coz no one is entertaining him! And guess wad, i sumhow gotta know of sumthing! Anw, it's not meant to be shared! Last night went to meet my dear fren Ariza after donkey years of not meeting her. Basically it's all about sum issues that we're discussing about and catching up on each other's welfare. I'm so eager to let her meet my besties, Myra... Hahahah! I think they would make a great compact collaborations if they both starts to "talk"!!!! Hahahahahah!! Anw, i had an early rest last night... Prolly because im too exhausted!! After watching Deal or No Deal, i went straight to my bed to sleep! Didn't manage to visit granny also! I'll make it up okies....! :)

Anw, I just gotta know from sumone I knew saying tat she found out who was the A****** that corrupted her blog! Crap-ness! To these people, get youself sum life. Dun bother to entertain other people's life when you are living a life full of mess and hell! Hahahahaha!! Nonsense!! People blog coz they want to, even if you're given the privilleages to read and write a comment, then do it by all means... But personal beef aside.. Blogs, webbies and other cyber-diaries are not meant to inject commotions and tensions amongst one another.... Do me a lil favour, to those nusisance that's been bugging me too, go to the library and read those books about "CYBER WAR TERRORIST" can??! I think you'll find useful infos and you would then understand that it's not that difficult to track you down ok!! Spend your free time reading and getting more knowledge that causing unnecessary tension can?! Hahahah!! Gosh!!! Get a life lah hoe!

Another thing that came up to my concern was about another soul!! I think this people really got no life lah! Really!!! They're never grateful for what ever that has been in their way and path of life! MyRa was telling me lah about this person.. And I told Myra, i rather not know coz I think they're just not worth my penny!! I just hope and pray that these people would learn their lesson in life soon... Life is not always a bed of roses, coz there may ben thorns that's unseen... And life is all about a box of chocolates, you just never now whad's the filling.... Till den, i think i'm just gonna focus on myself now... Everything about me....!! All about my life!! My future!! Coz I've longed left my pasts..... *muacks*

2007-06-13T09:19:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

I'm back..... Really didn't get the chance to update my blog yesterday coz basically I was like "busy" watching the Indonesian Sinetron HIKMAH Season 3 till the very last episode!! It's been like a 4 days marathon... So now i've officially completed watching them! Yeahuuu! Hey guess wad, Season 2 itself I haven't watched till the end, then skipped to season 3...! Wadda heck yeah! Hahahaha! Anws, i'm gonna get the DVD's of this show myself.. Troublesome lah wanna borrow people!!! Wait here, wait there... This and dat, so leceh!!!

Well, i really wanna share with you viewers/ readers something.... Yesterday went smoothly and sent my lil sister, Syarfah off to Korea last night. She's on a field trip with her schoolmates and 3 lecturers.. I'm happy for all of my sisters actually! Everyone of them are our family's hope right now...! Bro is completing his Bachelor's Honuoury soon, I've completed my Advanced, my sisters are all now in Poly and they have made future plans.. So I think that we've done our part in making our parents proud in the educations aspects thou! Now, we're trying our level best to be a good, obidient and wonderful children of theirs! Insya Allah! We, especially ME could have never done it without my Mummy and Papa!! Especially so, our Dad, he has been supporting us and being the only bread-winner (for the past 18 years coz mum have to leave her nursing job to take care of my lil triplet sisters), and ensuring that we've got the best education that he could provide with, giving us tastes of luxury that he can afford to lavish on us, being there for his children always despite any circumstances.... phewww~ I guess I can go on and on... I just wanna let all of them know that I Love you guys!!! My dear aunties and couzzies and not forgetting my one and only lover, my cute and adorable niece DQ and her parents (which is my brother and my sis in law of course!! She can't possibly be there alone wad right??! hahaha!!) were there to sent Lil Syarfah off too! Macam nak antar dia pergi Umrah lak... Kecoh....!! Hahahaha!! But that's just my family..! Always being there for one another!! Ok here's the part that I really wanna share with you guys!

After sending sis off at the airport, we headed home.. I had my late dinner with dad and sisters. Then i had my shower... While in the bathroom I could hear my mobile rang...! It rangs non-stop!! So I was like already wondering, who could it be calling me at 11.30pm and non-stop summore! I seriously thought it was an urgent call... So after shower I already had like 13 missed calls from an unknown number... The phone rang again and when I picked up, there was this idiotic asshole, should be on a bike coz out the background noises and then he came up again with this stoopid eerrriee sound and hang up! He called again and i didnt answer at all. The next 5th call i picked up and i cursed and I hung up!! The idiot was aggitated i guess that he called again and i hung up on him instead he hung up on me! Wadda fish!! Mutha-F**&#%# ass!! He continued his game while i get things done! Im supposed to make a police report and file against this lunatic! Troublesome!! But like i've say, dun mess with me! I can be a lover, but I can also be a nightmare!! And guess what, this idiot doesn't stop there! He called again this morning @ 6.50am!!! And repeated his crab!! To the idoiot, please get yourself a life and get yourself some companion to entertain your misery! You'll be hearing from me soon!! Shit!! Really bugged my day!!

Anw, I'm not gonna let it affects me as much as it has already affected! Going to meet granny later on at night... Oh ya Myra! Where the pictures..???? I wanna spice it up!! I can make babies you know while waiting for your pictures!! hahahahaha!! So the late!!! Summore got lappy at home, so no excuses hor! Hahahahahah! No worries lah dear, slowly lah ok, 2008 aso you can pass me... Lolz!! Alrighty, see ya aroun'... muacks!!

2007-06-11T13:43:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Hahahahahahah! I heard that sumone's reading my blog now.... Heheheheheh!! Anws, weekends was tiring.... Spend time mostly with family... Xcept that one part in the wee hours of Saturday cum Sunday morning, Lini called up and asked me to meet her at OooooOO... Oh my!!! I actually went!! Hahahahahaha!!!! Giler nyer kerja!!! Meet her like quater to 2am and dazing the night away!! Reached home about 4.30am, got a shower and guess wad!! I can't sleep... Damn~~.... Must be pretty tired i guez!! Woke up ard noon on Sunday, and got ready to sent mummy for her wedding reeception, then brought mummy & sisters to Tampines Mall coz I was craving for the Carrot Cake at The Royals...! Seriously, i dunnoe wad had come over me, i suddenly craved for that!! Then went to fetch dad, pity him, he gotta werk this weekend coz his werkplace has an inspection today! So basically he has to burn extra hours over the weekends to get things done! After fetching dad, we went to Parkway coz daddy wanna change currency for my lil sister as she's leaving for Korea tommorrow!!!! Best kan.....! Sigh~ We grab food later at my cousin's eating place and had our dinner at Mak Long's house coz it's her b'day and also Nisa's b'day.... Went back home to watch ANTM, and dozed off.... But sumhow ard 3am i woke up and suddenly felt like sleeping at my sofa... Wadda heck!! But I did thou~ Hahahahahahahha!!!!

And so.... today is a Monday, and a fresh start of the week...! I'm officially alone today in this office... Big boss and lady boss went outstation and my in charge is werking from home today... So i'm left all alone... Pretty much got things to do thou.... So gotta do now!! Hahahahahahahaahaha!!!!! See ya folks later... *muacks*

2007-06-08T11:07:00.000+08:00

*PeaCe Be Upon You*

Hip!!! Hip!!! Hurray!!! It's a Friday!!!! And that calls for a celebrations!! Yahoo.... I'm gonna meet my ladies later to have a chill out session forllowed by a hefty weekends...! Weekends: (MODE ON)

Really dunnoe where to meet the ladies later. Still got no freaking place and venue confirmed... Hahahahahahahahhahah! Meet me at the Caribean can?? Wakakahakhakhakh!
One thing's for sure, I'm not gonna meet them at any places that's very busy! And ladies, NO KARAOKE SESSION TODAY PLS!!! Takder mood langsung nak melalak!! Membinggitkan otak!!! Hahahahaha!! Haiz... I just dunno y but off late, i rather have and spent time being at a more cozzy and relaxed places... Where there's not much human congestions! Even clubbing now gets so tiring these days! It's INDEED tiring thou'! HAHAHAHAHAH~! And I still can't explain to you people, that I'm beginning to hate the feeling of being a jammed packed places & clubs, getting all sweat up and hitting on almost everyone in your path! Weird huh?! And my besties will go like saying this to me.. "U sure onot gal, u dun wanna club?!"... Well how do i explain??!!..... Hmmm... I LOVE dancing, I LOVES grindin', I LOVE having fun & getting a lil tipsy... But I'm beginning to HATE the nonsense, the scene, especially with too many stereo-typing, too many wanna-bes, too many people that got hurt in the game, and also, too many YP's that have a total different mindset of clubbing in all!! And the scariest part is that, the scene is full of so called old timers that I think should already retired! Wadda hell are they thinking sia??!! There's this saying in Malay... "Rumah kata pergi, kubur kata mari...!" Hahahahaha!! I mean, It's ok to have some fun & let loose once awile, but duh~ i seriously dun think getting drunked and crunked every single night is cool.. It's unsightly, horrendous, horrible, horrifying and worst still... It's UNHEALTHY!!! So that explains it i hope... and that triggers me to start slowing down... Age is catching up i guess... That's the beauty of starting it in ur peak youth primetime.....!! U'll slow down by now!! Hahahaha!!! Insya Allah....

Well last night I really can't sleep that well after i received a call from someone unexpected... After hearing the part of story, I felt that LIFE can sometimes be cruel.. But dun blame it on the world, blame it upon yourself! Coz this is wad u decide, so face the music lah! Everyone has their fair share of troubles, problems and dilemma in life, but hey, you've gotta keep your faith... You've gotta keep up with this world and you've gotta be realistic! I was sharing it with my besties, and they are cursing and swearing on certain things! I dun blame them for having this kindda reactions & feelings.. Instead, I've told them to just take this as something we can learn from... U see, I'm PROUD AS HECK (hahaha!) to say that amongst the besties, I'm the most reasonable person and i'm "so NOT" the juggemental sort! I've always see things in both negative and positve part! Right or not ladies?! Am I wrong to say that?! I dun think so! Hahahah! Proud inheritance of my daddy's traid if ya noe wadda mean....! Lolz~ (Diz will later explains why Myra always screwed me up side down when shit happens! She's always say, "Takpalah, baik lagik ar ngan org, biar org pijak kepala you banyak2! Pas tu kasi ar org muka..!"... Oh no~ when she STARTS, SHE WON'T STOP SIA!!! HElllpppppp~ But because of that lah also, she make me realise in one way or another that, dun be too easily taken aback by people that are so manipulative!!) Thank you lah babey!!!
Anw, back to the PAL-TURNED ACCQUAINTENCE story, shocking but not tat shocking (how can that be eh?!) the lil gal now has 3 CHILD!!!.. Imagine, being barely 21 (I was having the primetime of my life with my besties and friends sia at that age!), she now has 3 child... a 3++yrs old daughter, another 1++yrs old daughter AND.... A 2 WEEK's old baby boy!!!! My gosh!!! Not having an income, not having a husband figure around to help you, she depended sooooo much on her mother and stepfather! Than her folks also another one kindda breed seh! I'm sorry but no offence to anyone here, but seriously, can u imagine ur folks are 'ok' abt this whole mess??? My goodness~ I think i'm gonna have my name engraved in a tombstone if that were to be me.. Ishk! Nauzubillah!!! Anws, her bro is arrested, her another sis is leading a life of their own, and her another brother is USELESS! Haiz... I will continue praying for u guys is all I can afford to do for you now baby gal! She regard me as an elder sister, but gal, there's only that much a sister can do for you, the rest is up to you baby... Repent coz there's room for it still!! Goshh~~

Alrighty, gotta go... Back to werk and gonna enjoy ma weekends, and I can't possibly wait to meet up with ma ladies!! Yeahhhhuu!!! See ya aroun folks!!

2007-06-07T14:46:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

I'm happy... truly happy for now! I can never ask for anything more. I can never bargain for anything lesser.... Truly contented with everything! We'll i've always believe in having a light at the end of a dark tunnel thou!

Work has been great so far. No politics and everyone seems so fond of each other. We'll everyone has their crappy times, so I guess it's all about learning to give & take, forgive but dun forget ok!! Hahahaha! But right now, I'm not complaining... My BIG Boss, my boss and ma lady boss are all superb! They made me feel so welcome and they always minggle... heheheh!

Well, later on tonight, am prolly gonna meet someone... He's been bugging me to go JB with him, but I so the LAZYDOTCOM!! hahahaha! See how tonight lah.... I'm catching up with werk now... So see ya later aittes!! *muacks*

2007-06-06T10:07:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

It's da mid-week! Yeyyy!! In da office doing up some stuffs... Guess wad! I get this call early in the wee hours of the morning ard 4am from a private number caller... Damn! When I answer, he gave me this 'so called' scarry screeching voice followed by a laugh and then hung up! WTF??!!! Nothing to do issit??? Sick people... And the best part is he called up again 4 times and hung up... Anw, I didnt answer.. So dat's it! Not entertaining morons and i continue with my beauty sleep... Hahahaha!

Last nite, had coffee with my besties... And a chit chat session that lasted till 10++pm without us realising... Many topics has been discussed and talked about... Everyone seems to have their fair share of probbies in life i guess... I must admit, I was a lil quiet and in dazed when the initial part of the conversation we had, nah~ not because i'm not wanting to hear them talk, but infact, I was like figuring out on different human's gestures and behaviour... But later on, the topic got hotter and hotter!!!! Hahahahahaha! OOooopppSSss~ The rest cant be elaborated!! But one's thing for sure, the word for the night was...... "STORE KUNYIT!".... Hahahaha!!

Came back and dad was complaining to me, saying that the moment if I started to work far, I'm sure to be back home late everyday! So I told him, "Pa, chill....! I meet Myra & Lini for coffee and I missed them, dats y hang out late!"... U noe wad he answer... typical daddy he replied.. "Rumah takda kopi eh, ajak lah dorang datang rumah, nanti bapak sediakan kopi, bebual lah korang sampai pagi!"... Hahahahahah! But hey, i've gotta be honest, my daddy never fails to buy me rations of coffee ya noe! All types of flavaz are at home. He's always out trying new stuffs, and i'll be the food tester cum critics.... Hahahah! ThankS dad & Love you man!! Mummy's on different side, she doesnt encourage me at all to drink coffee, she say it's not too good, but still, i do drink, and she has no comments...! Hehehe! Alrighty, can't wait for the weekends already.... Friday meeting the ladies up again insya allah....N weekends will be like movie marathon day!!! Yahooooooooooo~~~~!!!

Gotta go... stay save, healthy and positive always aittes peepz!! *muacks*

2007-06-05T09:51:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

It's a tuesday today!!! Yipee... Soon enuff, without us realising we're reaching the weekends yet again. It's so scarry when you begin to think about the time that passes so fast these days yeah! Gosh~!

Anw, yesterday was basically werk, then followed by a coffe session with Lynn... I think it's been ages since we last met! So hence, she said we should meet and she came to have coffee with me near my werk place.... We catch up on stuffs, and on issues that's she's not known... And while talking, i suddenly had this killing pain at my head! Prolly because we were too engrossed about the topic and the person which is not worthy!! hahahahah! We left early coz I wanna catch the sinetron HIKMAH & Lynn wanna do a lil shopping spree with her sis at TP...!

When I reach home, my uncle and aunty were at home. They came over to collect the items that they've ordered... I had a bath and then straight to the TV to catch HIKMAH.... Damn.. It's getting too slow in the picture and I think I can have heart attack watching that kindda picture you know!!

This morning, i mean early morning, otw to werk, MyRa called me up! Suprised coz if she calls up early its either she's damn freaking bored, upset or sure got sumthing she eagerly wanna tell... And my guess was rite, she was asking me out today... Yeahuuu!!! Another date... But ah, she asked me to go CB Boat Quay! U noe wad, I just dun fancy that place, it's not chilling anymore there, and it's so unaccessible... Too many attention seekers all over that area too! Well, that's how I felt lah, maybe because i think i' growing older day by day, so i tend to prefer chill, quiet and more relaxing ambience thou!! Cabs will be the solutions for transportation, but hey... I'm not gonna splurge on cabbies unless necessary coz I'm on strict budget this month!!!! Hahahahahahha! Next month onwards can hurray2 again!!! And aso not forgetting my short trip.... Going Krabi with couzzie!!! And if god's permit, goin Switzerloand with couzzie and moi family to meet up with my uncle there..! He's been reminding me to meet him there!! So hang on Uncle... I'm saving up lerrr... Heheheheh!!! Yahooooooooo~

Must aso start to think of wad to buy for my galfren fer her wedding end of this year!! Lambo??! Bungalow??! Destinee' cut ring??! Honeymoon tics to Milan??! (Oh no!! Dat's fer me....I wanna shop there!!! I missed shoppin @ Tiffany, Gucci and Prada da most!! (Donkey years ago, me & family went, i think I was in Sec 2, and even then, I shop alot..! I think all of us will shop even more if it's not our MONEY right???!!! hahaha!... lolz..) Prolly I'll get her something kinky huh!! So must start planning early.. HAHAHAHAHHAH!!! Next thing on my shooping list: The white and gold beaded LV hangbag!!! Oh~ i luuurrrvveee ittt!! But bear in mind, the price is also 'lovely'!! Slowly but surely that bag is gonna be mine!! *Hint* Ehem~ ehem... My ladies, i dun mind waiting for it for my b'day gift ok! And to him, I dun mind you buying for me that too... Was just kidding lah!!!!

Okies, gtg, catch up later aittes!! *muacks*

'Zaman' clevage was the in-thing!! Wakakakakak~~ Oooooweeeee!

'ZAMAN' SePet-NeSS was da in thiNG!! Stick to Ur glasses lah!! Keekekek!!!!

'ZAMAN' This is waD u CaLL "FINGER-FOOD!!"...hahhahaha!!!

A blurry family pic... Reminising....! I LOVE THEM!!

This was when Lil Dhiya Qistina is in the making..... Hehehe!

Azan R.E... He's friendLy, approachable and a cam freak too... We''ll see ya agn at RASTA PJ aittes!! Hahahahaha!!

Meeoowwwsss.. a.k.a Cat! Da man behing 'papa jahat!!'... hahahhaahah!

2007-05-31T16:46:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Eyyya! It's a hols huh... I'm super slagged now.. Tired like hell...!!!! Last night, went for a boggie with couzzie and some frens. Glad to catch up with sum ol time buddies.. And yeah... I met a long long lost dearest pal Hady!! Dude!! I'm glad to see you movingon well despite you're in sum kindda messed up and confused situation now... Anw, you can alwasy count on me aittes... A phone call away babehh... He's getting skinnier and I hope he's gonna kick off his bad habits soon before it deters him further aittes.... Anw, I had a great fun last nite.. Was super packed!! But i still do enjoy myself.. and so does my couzzie and the rest.. How I wish Mira could join us last nite... The DQ's was crappy ealier then expected lah Myra..!! Hahahah! Myra, later i story wad happen ok and aso abt this person whom just can't get a life!! My, i think you would agree with me too that we're better off without those asshollaazzz too huh! hehehehe!! Whooppsss....

*Continue back dated posts!*

And guess wad, i'm feeling so lousy and dammit i had a very very bad fever attack at night and I'm starting my new job on Friday! I'm feeling damn F****D up boii!!! Goodness gracious me.. Woke up on Friday morning, super early and try to get myself ready, but can u imagine i just can't wake up.. I'm like a dizzy wizzy spider.. Can't even walk straight... But i seriously dragged myself to werk...
In brief: Job was fun, culture was fun, we can walk barefoted in our office. We can switch on the radio, there's a smoking room, and a huge comfy sofa for me to rest on.... Hahahahaha! But all's too early, but let's hope the positive start will continue all the way aittes! My boss allowed me to go back early coz i seriously couldn't take it anymore...! I was like a ticking bomb, anytime i'll just faint.. I took a cab to werk this morning and also back to home!! damn!!! Waste of money huh! but seriously, i'm just freaking weak!

SAT/SUN:
Rested, trying to recuperate so that I can be back on full swing on Monday at office... And pls god, gimme the strength to move on.. I know you'll always be by my side!

Myra, sorry babe coz I can't go Bukom with you on Sat, i'll meet up with you for a coffee soon okies... I promise... Then prolly next weekend we'll chill at ur crib and the follwing weekend, you'll be at my aunt's crib aittes..! This is to make up for all the time we've missed each other okies...! Hahahahah! And yeah, Ibuk Alin, sorry Friday lunch was provided by my boss lerr, i didnt even eat seh...! We'll meet soon ok.. Sorry for that day!! Catch up with the rest soon too... In the meantime... I've just gotta say this for all of us to ponder aittes.....

"NEVER BE ENVIOUS TO OTHERS FOR A WRONG REASON, COZ YOU AIN'T GONNA MAKE IT FAR! LEARN TO BE TRUTHFUL TO YOURSELF, AND THE REST WILL FLOW NATURALLY WITHOUT BEING THOUGHT AITTGHTS! AND LASTLY... STOP TALKING AND UTTERING RUBBISH, COZ FOR ALL WE KNOW, YOU'RE NOT WORTH IT!!!"

*muacks*

2007-05-30T10:15:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Today is the day... Woke up feeling so mixed up! Nah.. I should say a messed up feelings instead... Hahaha!
Gonna miss the work and the great bunchca fun colleagues... But again, like i've say, it's all for good...!!!! Nothing is FIXED in life, it's all about endless diversity i guess...

I'm already in the holiday-ing mood... Anw, had a super long lunch ealier... Went shopping summore! Well, i guess it's about time to shop for myself now.. Hahahah!! Not that i've not been shooping for myself, but to pamper myself more... I was given time off.. I love my AGM!! Thank you for everything Mrs Wong! You are the best! Didn't get a chance to hug her either coz she was out, only managed to talk to her via the phone. I was reminding myself to stay calm wen i bid farewell to everyone... I did managed but somehow or rather, this Kak Vin huh!!, she made me shed sum tears. Darn!! *EMO* Fyi, she's been a great sis to me ya know! And I'm loving and missing her already! My whole family and even my bestie are fond of her.. Gonna miss the clumsy-ness the most! LoLz~ Anw, like i've told her and sum of them, it's not gonna be a goodbye.. Infact I'm just gonna be a phone call away!! Pheww, everyone was like hugging and pecking me... I felt so teddy!! And it's a nice feeling mind ya...I love it...! Now i need a huggy again.. Anyone????! Ya rite!!
Anw, hopefully and pray for me that i'm gonna excel in my new plc...

Okie, it's the eve of Vesak Day... And already i've got some plans to boggie tonight...! Meeting up my pals * dear couzzie that i've been neglecting... And catch up and get a lil giggie with ourselves later.. Cant wait to meet u guys up lah! Also, I must.. and definately must meet Myra soon.. I so miss her siakkk! (Hmm.. Sounds so lebian-ism right??! But u think I care issit?! Dun bother even!) I MUST MEET HER!!!! Either tommorrow (provided I could wake up early!!) or not on Friday after my first day of work... I really need to see her sehhh! I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY!! How i wish she could join me tonight! We've not been partying together ever since months before she got married and till she's married for almost 2 years now sehhh! Can u imagine that??! She had forlorn her dancing shoes for good i guess! And i'm sure despite her not partying, her gusto and flow is still there ya noe wadda mean!! *scream* MYRA, MARLINI..... "REMEMBER THE DQ's???"... Hahahahaha!

Alrighty... Im gonna get a lil rest now... And definately, the next tyme i blogged, more flavas is gonna be added...Heheheh! I'm preserving it!! To all my pals who is gonna celebrating tommorrow's auspicious day, HAPPY VESAK DAY ya'll! To the rest, happy holidays....!!! Oh ya dude, i'll catch up with u soon ok! Not that i've been neglecting you also, just that i'm givin u the time and space for you to start missing me even more...!! Hahahah! okies... outzzz!!!

2007-05-29T13:53:00.000+08:00

2007-05-29T08:37:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

TiCk~ ToCk~ TiCk~ ToCk~.... Counting every seconds of the time left for me to be stucked in this office..! To the actual fact that I'm gonna miss working here, having ONLY afew great colleagues around me and an understanding and hip AGM, that's sumthing that I'm gonna missed the most... But let's hope that the culture and environement at my new werk place is gonna be so much better.. Insya Allah! *crossed fingers*...! And seriously I hope to progress from there on.. The workscope has been my forthe' for the past 7 years and I must say and I hope that I could share and guide this new company that Im gonna work with...! I'll be starting this Friday... Actually I've gotta serve like a week's notice, but the guy (dunnoe his designation of the firm lah!) insisted if I could start on Friday as the new project is starting by then.. After discussing with my AGM.. (Mrs Wong, thank you for your understanding & i love ya!!)She let me leave ealier.. Thank u again Mrs Wong... *muacks*

Basically, last night, after coming back from work, I was at home... Chillin while having my cuppa tea, reading this book I just bought at a bookshop recently, got too carried away with the book that I didn't realised that I was almost 8pm... And guess what people!!! Suddenly my stomach was like screeching giving me signals that i need food...! Hahahah! Hungry seh!! Ate a lil fried mee dat mum had cooked.. Super yummy!! Spicyy~ (even thou hungry, I dun really like yellow mee, but no choice, still gotta eat mah...!! Anws, chicken wings are also being prepared... so???!!!! Hahaha!) Then followed by a TV session.. Hehehehehe!!!

Anws, gotta go already...Catch up with you sooonnnnn....*maucks*

2007-05-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

EVERYONE!!!! I'm just truly happy and glad right now... No words could express my gratitute towards the Almighty for answering my prayers...! Thank You and my resilient prayers paid off!! I've finally received a call to say that I'm selected for the job that I went for interview last Friday! Alhamdulillah... I could have never asked for more... Hopefully this will bring me a new phase and era in my journey...!!! I just tendered my resignation from the firm and my AGM was a little disheartened by the fact that I wanna leave. She even counter offered me.. But again, the offer wasn't what I wanted.. I just can't progress here... I'm gonna be stagnent and that's so not ME!!! But I must admit, I'm gonna miss my dear colleague Kak Vin, and gonna miss werking with a great & understanding AGM...Anw, life is all about progression right?! So, I won't look back.... I'm just over-whelmed!!!! Speechless??!!! Yeah....

2007-05-28T08:58:00.000+08:00

*Peace Be Upon You*

Morning! Morning everyone....~
It's Monday again and it's a fresh week to start with..! Yabadabadoo~ Anw, I had a tiring weekends I must say.. Been lazing ard at home on Saturday and so some catching up on certain people that I've been negelecting... Thought of meeting Mira, but she had some plans ahead, so i basically was just lazing around.. Till about nearly 8pm, a buddy of mine called up and ask me out. Went to meet him coz it's been sometime since I last saw him and yeah I do miss him...! We went to have supper @ simpangz and den he took me for a ride to the construction area at Singapore Flyer... Actually the view at night was great! Superb! And the ambience was chillin too..! The night goes on.. Hahahahahah!

I was home about late after midnight and I just can't sleep... Prolly i got too carried away with the joy ride! Wuuuhuuu!! And on Sunday, I woke up super early to catch Suria Segar, then got ready to sent mummy & daddy to go for wedding reception... As usual, I'm their driver.. Hehehe! Our last pitstop was to Cik Ebot's house coz she's having this doa selamat as she's gonna go to perform Umrah next week..! My dear aunt was asking me if I wanna get anything from Mekkah.. With a giggle, I replied her.. "Aunty, prolly I may need an Arabian Man. Can u bring home one for me?".. And everyone started to laugh... Hahaha! I was actually kidding thou and i told her to take care of herself, be safe always and pray for me that I'm gonna be a good and obedient gal towards my family and god always! And of course pray that i'll meet my match soon too... Heheheh!!! So after all that, i went back home and just before Maghrib, my bro's family came.. And lil Dhiya Qistina was our main attraction...! She's our darlings ya noe.. Even mummy & daddy is delighted to see their grandchild... After Maghrib, bro & sis in law left to grab some errands for their home while lil DQ was left with us.. She's now talkative ya noe.. She'll just blabber & blabber when people talks to her.. Intelligent huh!! My sisters was actually studing for their exams and the moment our niece arrived, they pack their books aside and paid all thier attention to her.. Hahaha! The best part was when my mummy gave her a shower coz she was all aggitated and it was so humid!! She's been under a good care of her grandparents and aunties.. I so~ love my precious lil niece... They left abt 11pm.. So sad... I wish she could stay longer or spent the night at our home.. But all of us gotta werk today u see...
I just cant sleep the whole night coz it was so humid and despite bathing twice, I just can't sleep... Oh ya! Btw, the jerk has not return my stuffs!! If u are reading this, please be a human and gimme back my stuffs... I hate you enuff, so pls, get this over and done with!!! Ars!!! He's not gonna spoil my day either... So Drop his subject! Hahahah!!

Okie, now i've gotta catch up with my werk.. I've also gotta catch up with Myra... Hahahahahha! I've gotta catch up with many others... So hopefully this Vesak Day holidays, i'm able to do the catching up... Or else they have to catch up with me..! weheheheheheh~~ :)
Psstttt: To my dear buddies that has invited me to a 'social gatherings' this wed night, I hope to see ya soon.. We shall boggie all night long and paint the town red aittes... *muacks*... Muzairah darling, i miss you.... MarLini.... i miss ya too! Mummy Ana, i miss you deep²... Dude, i hope to hear from you soon... Hahahah!!Otehz.. see ya aroun peepz!! *muacks~ muacks~ muacks~*

2007-05-25T15:56:00.000+08:00

*Peace be Upon You*

Well... Ello there party people!!! Waddup ya'll!! Heheheheeee~ I was missing yesterday coz I was like supa packed in the office. And blog seems to have a probbie....! Anw... It's FRIDAY~~.... So looking forward for the weekends... and guess wad peepz~ It's da beginning of the GSS and like hopefully it's the beginning of something new for me... Uwwikk!
I'm already not werking today... Nah~ Not because I getting myself ready for the shopping spree... Nah again, not because i'm lazy either.. But infact, i'm on leave coz I went to collect my certs and went for some ehem2 ealier on.... Wanna make it a lil suprise for everyone!

Alright... Let's hope that the weekends will just turn out fine and just the way i wanted it to be... Got loads of plans ahead and i simply can't wait to meet with my ladies.. and my fellaz of course..! You know who you are..! And let me tell you something.. my whole bosy is aching like hell... Its due to the straineous work out last nyte at the gym and the super fast brisk walking session... Now, I'm like flying and high up in the air..! Hahaha! Well wads all that to the aftermath satisfaction huh!! Yeah so hang on babe, you're just gonna be fine & alright!! *Gotta keep the faith ya naw wadda mean~* Lolz!
I'm not denying that the person that has been running in ma head almost every single tick of the time is slowly fading from my mind and heart.. Yeah, couldn't help it! But he's gone...slowly and surely... THis is the result of making me hated you dopey! Sorry, but dats just me! Was just catching up with Myra ealier on, she was also agreeing with my too and she's even worst, she even threw back the question at me that struck me.. "Do we even know him?! Who the heck is he??!" hahahahahahah!!... Im pretty sure my another darlz Lynn would have agreed with us too... Oh yeah! Thankieu babe for ur help in making this blogging a success!! Hahaha! If its not because of your persistant bugging to ask me to blog years ago, i would be least interested ya noe! hahaha!

Oh yeah! Btw, i was just wondering if 'some' people are simply being nossy in wanting to be bitchy about other human's welfare when they themselves needed welfare support huh!! Crap!! & pls, get yaself sum life. You know that you're boring rite?!! So pls.. sccchhhooooo..... Dun be an angel when u're the sinner aittes!! You'll tumbbled sooner then you least epxpect it to be...!

To the rest who's reading this, continue reading and feel free to comment... To my hunneys and babeh.. I miss ya'll alot and i'll catch up soon...!!! See ya aroun and i've got sumthing for ya to ponder... *muacks*

2007-05-23T10:47:00.000+08:00

Peace Be Upon You*

Heyya peeps! Uuuuuwwweeee~~ It’s Wednesday and it’s already the mid week…!!!
I’m so looking forward for the weekends as a lot of itinerary has already been planned prior to this.. And thus, I’m excited… Not forgetting, Great Singapore Sale will begin soon... Yippeee!!!!

Yesterday as expected, I had a sumptuous dinner. I think the dishes covers almost 90% of the dining table…(Calling for: Mr Asam Pedas, Ms Ayam Lemak, Mrs Sambal Goreng, Mdm Limpa-sumthing *dunnoe the name of the dish coz I dun eat them!*, Master Satay, Lady Sotong sambal tumis, Mr Murtabak and some other ulams& etc…) Wad a feast!! Even our guests were surprised himself & sunnoe which one to begin with!! Hahaha! Anw, I & family prayed that Abg Jono will have a safe flight back to his home. We’re missing your kids and wife already… Insya Allah, see ya there very soon ok! This time round, it would be the whole lot of us coming down to your place. So be prepared, your house is definitely gonna be noisy you noe…!! Heheheheheheh!!! After sending them back, I headed home and then had another shower!! I straight headed to my bed… Sorry mummy, I didn’t helped you to clean up… But I’ve done the dishes already!! Hehehe! Ended up my lil sisters gotta help, infact they have to coz I run the errands ealier, so now it’s their turn! J And now.. I’m slowly gonna lose my voice. Darn!! Pls god! Help me~~

I’m extremely sleepy now!!… Felt so tired & lethargic!!! As I’ve stepped into the office this morning, I’ve already heard people talking about other people’s shits! OFFICE POLICTICS! And these politicians are having a debate. Crap! Dunno why they can’t just keep quiet! Another Crap! And they are unhealthy people that u should avoid coz these are the species that will ruin your sane…!! Lolz!! Anw, I’ve got like a few customers off hand to deal with right now, but I’m taking it slow and still have the time to blog! That’s wad you call multi-tasking ok! Weehhaa~ And the reason why I’m taking it slow it’s because I’m sleepy & freaking feeling sick!! So in order to pull thru the day, I’ve gotta lay back a lil.. (abit only ok! ~wink~).. If not I’m gonna struggle thru’ the day, which I dun intend to do so~….
Well… I’ve gotta go now, gotta process my artwork, send in quotations and do some follow up calls, I think this already will take me the whole day coz it ain’t easy here at my company….Processing artwork alone take days ya noe! Time, accuracy & promptness is our REVENUE!! Hahahahah~~~ Before my ‘busiest-body’ manager comes back, I think I shall catch up with you guys later!! Till den, I’m missing my ladies….. I’m loving my family, and I’m loving my life…..

*Ppsssttt*: Myra.. when do you think we can meet? Next week MUST meet ok darling!! I miss you nehhh.. I miss you like crazy despite me being crazy enuff!!! Phone conversations not enuff lah darling…
To my ‘emo’ pal, Lini, pls ar, stop being bruised easily! I’m bruised enuff ok! I’m tired and I’m sure all of us are! And in case you dun noe, I miss you too~ It’s just that u ‘feeling’ busy lah rite, so no time to catch up with pals mah, so I shan’t bother cha lah!! MSN not enuff ok!! U & My hor, feeling communicate via the cyber world laks!! But should you have the time, do catch up with us too okies…!! Then the story can be revealed… Hahaha! ( Must talk face to face, wait u emo here, emo there, emo-emo everywhere! Ol’ Lini had a farm, eeiya eeiya yo~!!) *Joking hor, u emo u watch out!!*

TO: Those whom simply loves reading my blog, continue reading ok! I preech my own freedom, so if you gotta problem, then you’re such a boredom… Hang on!! Another partner in crime whom is more expert in this cyber war thingy, she’s making a come back…And im tryin to persuade my another half to do the same thing too…! (But she abit lazy bum lah!! Hahaha!) So hang on jubronnies~ They say THREE IS A CROWD.. AND IT WILL TURN DISASTEROUS SHOULD YOUR TIME BOMB EXPLODE!! Anw, enjoy reading mine/our blogs aittes.. *muacksss*

2007-05-22T08:42:00.000+08:00

[My HearT, My HumpS, My[R]a]

(Myself..!)

[mEnGutuK partnEr, [L]i[N]i

*Peace Be Upon You*

A new day has begun..... Yahoo~ So looking forward for the rest of it and more of it to come.....Had a great time watching the telemovie HIKMAH² @ SURIA last nite... Iyoohhhaaa~ *Sorry dori strawberry.. lolz*

Well the day went a lil wierd towards the noon infact. Someone called me.. Unexpected but expected, he's only making himself looks more like a fool den a human.. So back off, I dun need you to gimme a sermon!!... WE DUN NEED YOU INFACT!! For all we know, you are one of those whom will always wanna live your life full of denials and craps! Hate me, Hate us, Hate our frens, we dun even tinggle an inch aittes dude! *Scream* "Mira!!!! Destiny's Child in da house... wakakakakakaa.. Damn dat Belado Jengkol iyohaa~!!" Anw, towards the end of the working hours I felt so much relief after talking to my gals... Especially u~ Myra... Now I can't stop laughing and the flashbacks of our conversations is still lingering in ma head..! Dat's bad u noe gal!! The silly conversations lasted till late evening when we both had to remind each other to stop talking and hung up the phone... Our "goodbye" lasted 15mins boii!! Hahahahaha!

To him, from US....!!

Then yesterday, I was telling my bestie that someone commented so much in their conversation with me. 'So called' trying to be the 'angel' ya noe.. But hey, the more you talk, the more it reflects back on you, so learn to shud up and open your mouth only when necessary aittes! I simply dun understand lah this people and seriously i wouldn't want to understand them either. I may be mean with my words too, I may talk alot at times, but I dun utter rubbish, and i thanked god for still giving me the sanity to be who he wanted me to be...unlike U!! Denying and lying is all you are ever fond off huh? Dun you realised y you're called a *B* since you've always think you've preeched modesty?! Time to do some reality checks and get your feet down to this earth aittes! We're humans after all, we dun walk around with a big mirror following us, so we at times may forget or mislead ourselfs. It take another human to ammend our mistakes. So stop saying you're good when people know you for a wrong reasons ok!! Learn to adapt to diversity and then we'll be able to gain prosperity ok!! Again, let me repeat myself and be clear abt it, I AIN'T AN ANGEL MYSELF, but I TRY TO TAKE PRECAUTIONS.... Scrammm~ Hahahahaha~!!! Something for you;

Okies dokies, I'm so looking forward to have dinner later on... So i'm skipping my lunch later just to prepare for dinner... A sumptuous one i guess! Mum's definately gonna cook a storm today! Alrighty, catch up later aittes..... Till den, take care and stay positive

2007-05-21T08:46:00.000+08:00

* PeaCe UpOn You*

Weeehaaaa~ It's the Monday Blues... I guess for me it's a Monday greens!! Hahaha! It was raining wen i woke up this morning for werk. Dad actually had to wake me up and force me out of bed because my alarm has been ringing and I've not been waking up. And guess wad, when he woke me, I even said to him that I was not working today?!! Dad's reactions was like.. Huh?! Why are you not working today?! Dun be ridiculos, get up.. And get ready now or we'll leave without you.. It was then I realised that oh my god~ It was a Monday morning... Goodness~~....!! Hahahah!!

Yesterday, I was having so much fun bringin' my lil niece with my family out for a shopping session.. But the shopping done was mainly for my dear niece Dhiya Qistina... Half way, she fell asleep in her stroller, we were like.. oh no~ dun sleep dearie... But ended, she woke up... coz i couldn't resists her.. keep on bugging her... heehehhe! Sorry darling... Aunty loves you thou'... Sis in law fetch baby DQ there and they straight headed home, and so do us... When I came back, i was just in time to catch Ugly Betty.... Kindda like the show and have never missed a single episode since it started... After it ended, I then head to my room.. and half way reading a magazine, I was terribly sleepy... I actually dozed off... But I was disturbed by the 3 girlies when they came in the room and made a heck of a noise... And mind you, it was like already 1.30am... Goodness....Pheww~~

Well, gotta go now.. AGM is back from her casino trip... DM is also back from China.... So today, full force already.... Kept my finger's crossed and hopefully I get a good news call later on or sumwhere this week, insya-allah.... Gotta go now peeps... Enjoy viewing the pictures.... And to HIM, slowly but surely, i'm beginning to be your bitter medicine babey~~!!!!

2007-05-20T11:10:00.001+08:00

Sneak Peak Of D Love Of My Life...Presenting to you... Ms Dhiya Qistina..

2007-05-20T10:31:00.000+08:00

*Peace be upon you*

It's Sunday morning... Woke up extremely early coz infact i only had like a few hours of sleep. I was on a sms war with him... U noe wad, I hated for being like this but gosh~ wad can i do, i dun have the means?!! I'm just being me, messed it, then face it!! I'm not a good actress or i ain't a pretender, but hey chap, u can sway with me if you wanna read my lines.... Gosh~~ Freak-a-leek boy!!!!

Besides all that stress, i'm still having my sore throat. I think i'm gonna loose my voice anytime soon.... Well, now i have to start planning for my holidays. I'm sure to have loads of fun coz I'm surrounded with so much love from honest humans... And not forgetting, i've gotta take my stuffs back... He's trying to play ignorant, well, i'm just not gonna sit here and let it abandoned... So wait yeah dude.. I'm coming at cha...! Hahahahaha!

I missesd my ladies especially Myra... Sorry darlz, I can't meet you gals up that Friday! I'll make it up to you very soon okies... Love cha dearly hunneys~!

To end this, skits of my idol.. Ms Mary J Blige... Read It & understand it...

{A}{L}{O}{N}{E}

Baby can i talk to you for a minute oooooo

listen boy you had me fooled

i cant believe you cause you never done anything that i asked of you

always talkin like i just can't do right blamin me for everything and that just aint right

cause i cant do this alone

( i dont know what to do)

alone

(im tryna stay with you)

it's not all about you, boy i can't do this alone

( you makin this harder, boy im bout to leave ya)

and i gave you everything i had, and i never said nothin, did everything for you

and what did you do nothing, then you got the nerve to wanna run your mouth like

i aint never held you down, baby what did i do to deserve this cause i put you on a shelf

girl i need help cause i can't do this alone

cause i can't do this alone

(i dont know what to do)

alOne

(im trying to stay with you)

it's not all about you

( hoooo, i can't do it),

cause i can't do this alone

( you making this harder),

alOne (girl im about to leave ya),

I can't do this alone, alone alone

and i tried to work this out before your changing now what do i do, im so confused and...

i tried to work this out before you changing now what do i do, im so confused like u...!!

I Used To Love Him

Now I don'tI used to love him....Now I don't.....

I look at what I've done, The type of life that I've lived,

How many things I pray the GOD will forgive

One situation involved a young man, He was the ocean and I was the sand..

He stole my heart like a thief in the night..

Dulled my senses and blurred my sight....And I used to love him!

I chose the road of passion and pain, Sacrificed too much and waited in vain

Gave up my power... Ceased being Queen..Addicted to love like the drug of, drug of a fiend

See torn and confused, wasted and used,

For something to happen that just wasn't fated

Thought what I wanted was something I needed...

When mama said no then I just should have heeded,

Misled I bled till the poison was gone.... And out of the darkness arrived the sweet dawn

GOD you saved me and you showed me that life,

Was much more than being some foolish man's wife

Showed me that love was respect and devotion,

Greater than planets and deeper than any ocean...

See my soul was weary but now it's replenished,

Content because that part of my life is finished I see him sometimes and the look in his eye..

Is one of a man whose lost treasures untold

But my heart is gold see I took back my soul, A

nd totally let my creator control...

The life which was his to begin with.....

2007-05-18T13:26:00.000+08:00

**Peace be Upon You**

So~ yesterday, went to Ba'Alwi with mummy & sisters... We've got lost along the way coz mummy was unsure of the alternate route there as i usually drive using the normal route. Instead of avoiding the congestions, we were confused.. Hahaha! But alhamdulillah, we managed to get our way there and particiapte in the prayers ceremony... (Thank You to Lini too, coz she helped me along to show me the way...! I love you lah babe!) I must say that being there and witnessing the ceremony was so refreshing... I was so much at peace with myself and insya allah, i will continuously pray for all that to happens. God is always great. To him I came from, and to him is where I belong.. After that went back home straight... Sent my Mak Long first then headed home... After shower, i was as usual, tired.... So i feel asleep...

I guess too much things is running in my head now.. So I'm in a total wrecked state of mind... I sumhow got this courage to message sumone to call everything off!!! Dunnoe where it came from seriously!!! After talking to my soulmate, my besties, who else can it be huh??!! It's non other than Ms Myra, she really gave a piece of her mind in our conversation. And yeah, her mouth huh.. gosh! Super Duper Laser!!! But I guess she has the whole load of points there. Thou her words are harsh and truly mean, but like i've say, she's correct in most of the aspects. I think she to feel for me, heard my cries and she to felt that it's not worth all these drama...

*SinG*

Let's not kill the karma

Let's not start a fight

It's not worth the drama

For a BEAUTIFUL LIAR!! (hahaha!)

That person was suprised by my messages. He then asked for forgiveness... Crap lah! We'll just wait and see... Coz the truth is never a lie!! *clap for me pls* hahahahah!!!!!!

Anws, gotta send parents now coz Daddy's co having his D&D... And now.... I'm logging off already from werk... Yaaabaaadaaabaadooo~ It's the weekends.... Catch up with you guys later aittes!! Meanwhile... To all da humans who loves me, Thank You... To human that hated me, den F**K You & thank you too....

..:: A glimpse of my ladies... 'Champagne Supernova' (named given by Lini!) ::..

We're as tough as a rock, ain't easy brinin' us down!

2007-05-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

*PEACE BE UPON YOU*

~Al-Fateha~

In loving memory of my dear grandma whom had passed away on the
13th May '07 @ 10.45pm. May your soul be placed with the angels in heaven and may you rest in peace. Thank you for all your good deeds and generosity to our whole family all this while. We're all definately goin to miss you grandma...

Whad a way to end Mother's Day when we received a call from my aunty saying that Nenek Nah had passed away.. Anyway, I shall not say much coz I hope that whateva that happened teaches all of us that life's too short these days, but for my dear grandma, we pray that your soul will rest in peace in heavean... Insya -Allah~!

To start off, Monday was a super tiring and chaotic day for me and the rest of the family. After subuh prayers, all of I went to fecth my aunties and uncles & bro went to fetch my coussins and the other lot for us to go Jb for my grandma burial. Alhamdulillah, all went fine despite slight hiccups along the way.... Then we reached home nearly to midnight... By then I was super shagged that I dozed off flat just after my bath.... Besides I haven't really recover from my fever and those silly willy viruses.... Hehehe!

I was given two days of compasionate leave, so basically I spent the rest of the day on Tuesday at home resting and doing some other errands. I love my AGM, she's the best & understanding boss... Thank You Mrs Wong~! May all your good deeds be retributed. Later on towards evening, as I was resting, as usual, i watch the 2 DVDs which i had bought ealier at JB. Mummy wasn't in favour of me watching those kindda movies, but den, it's just a movie... And besides, I'm even scarrier than the ghost... Hahahahahaha!!! Need I say more here??! :)

I actually received sms-es and calls from my besties asking me my how abouts and conditions. That's y i've said... I could never asked god for a better fren then her.. Ms Myra... I love you babe...! We're always on each other's neck, but all that only makes us stronger. Ain't easy bring us down coz god sent us to meet and our friendship lasts till eternity.. Thank You babe!! She also mentioned that the intended trip to Phuket will have to be postponed due to some financial issues for her end. Well, to be very honest, i was quite dissapointed coz she's eager to go and plans after plans have been made, but being me, I'm a reasonable person and i'm always an understanding person, so I dun mind at all for the delay. prolly, I'll just go for a short break myself...... With couzzie perhaps... Coz last minute plan always happen ya noe!! So insya allah... Da other thing that came by suprise was that another dear idiotic pal of mine, Mr Dopey, he too sms me to ask on my condition... You know dopey, if u are reading this, this is wad i meant by little- little things/ gestures that will make sumone's day... Physically unseen but spiritually felt... That prolongs in friendship ya noe~ Actually we're not on talking terms that much due to his untolerable & disturbed behaviour.. But he's always the king in our hearts... The spades of our souls.... And If you are reading this dopey, no matter how far you are, we'll just be s step back behind you.....!! But stop being such an a**hole lah pls!! Grow up lah beruk!!! Stop making mistakes that u are fond off, damn you~ Upsetting sehh!!! :)

Back to work again on Wednesday... Boii~ My client has been asking for his artwork but darn~ non of these people is helping me... Can u imagine that? My manager assisted but then again.. It wasn't properly done.. So~... Im kindda like freaking out... Simplest job can't be done here! And worst, everyone is only saving their own a** here... Dammit!!

And today....... I'm at werk again and clearing up some stuffs. One of my coll is on MC again.. Goodness gracious me!! It's like a pattern to have MC every week issit?! I'm kindda pissed, but dun care lah horr!! I've done my part in helping, but if people doesn't know how to take care of their own rice bowl, den dun expect others to feed you in future. Another lesson learn for this!! Yeah, u can be sick? But are ur body structured to fall sick every week? Doctors must be grateful to have patients like this boii.... :) I shall comment... This is up to individual adults to think!!

Now I've gotta continue my daily routine.... Felt better but still need more rest i guess... Later on goin Ba'Alwi with mummy & sisters.... I so missed going there... So today, I shall go... Insya Allah.... Alrighty peeps... See ya around....!!! Till den take care and have a great week ahead!!!Pssstttt: Lini, thankieu hor for helping me to do my background, seriously I dun have any single freaking idea what has happen... Thanks eh dokz!!! *muacks*

*A quote for us to ponder....

2007-05-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

OFFICIALLY MISSING DEM'..... (M)YRA & (C)OUZ!

*Peace Be Upon You*

Well....

Heyya peepz...! Wad a way to start blogging again.... I'm feeling really shitty now...!! ain't been well for the past few days and yesterday, another one more trauma i had to go thru'... Well doc says i'm fine, it's just that i needed to have more rest and try not to over worked & stressed myself. pheww~ how i wish i could ask d doc if he has any kindda prescribtion against not gbetting an individual to over stressed themselves..!! hahahahaha!!! You bet huh!!

aittes, a brief summary on the week;

first up, wednesday night i had a blast with my busu & pals... actually it was all uncalled for gathering... busu called me up to ask me out after my appointment that evening. i was in a contradicting mode, but yeah... i skipped that aside and i say well why not huh!! after all, it's been awile thou'... and catching up with my dear pal mr glory praka.... & of course ms dancing doodlegal.... was a great one....! sumetimes it just feel so much better to be with people whom are more of laid back spicies! We had a great time together and yeah, i got tipsy ealier than expected!! hahahahahha!! thanks to the 'sugar'....!! And of course… bumping into people whom I’ve not keep in touch with for ages means I’m gonna be in deep trouble… hahahah! But anyway who cares!! i’m just a gal that loves to have funs!!
Also, da best part was moi mummy & dad was quiet too the whole night… there wasn’t any single call from them asking my whereabouts!! ~CLAP~ hahahahahhhahah~
Prolly that was due to the reason that I’ve had called them ealier to say that I’ll be back very late & dun wait fer me… anyway they knew their lil gal need a break too after being such a ‘good’ gal all dis while… yeehaa

Then on thurs, guess wad, I seriously freaking can’t wake up or even carry my head off my pillows… dammit… I had to werk but gosh~ this can’t be happening… fyi, before I even party, I was already at the stage of collapsing aittes.. and the after party drool made it even impossible to wake up… ended up, I took an urgent leave.. and dis is the start of the nightmare… I puke, & puke, & puke.. seriously not because of the hang over but I guess that its because my stomach aches so bad and I’m fond of vomiting should my migraine goes real bad… so basically… I fell sick from then on…. And worst still, I had a most heartbreaking conversations with someone…. Pheww… I hate to blog that up! But hell yeah, I must say that it even detioriates me further… gosh~ oh allah! Hear my resilient prayer.. to him, I shall pray for your recovery till eternity….!! If I ever had a chance again to say it, I will, but right now, you are just fading away dopey… slowly fading~~~

I still pull thru on Friday coz I really need to clear a project for my client…. And it was a sick-ly Friday!! Lucky thing, I had a great & super understanding asst general manager that is concern about her staff’s welfare…. Mrs wong~ I love ya!!! Ya noe, sometimes u just dun have to explain to people certain things and issues… they simply can see it themselves without being told a shit…! And mind cha’ I aint that kindda women whom dun go to werk often and a frequent m.c playa… hahaha! Even if I partied till late, back home almost to the break of dawn…. I still get myself prepare fer werk.. so duh~ nuff said~

After werk that’s where all this weakest link starts coming in… after maghrib to be precise, I had this trauma thang…. So skip it….

Today I officially declared that I’ve bathe for almost 6 times already…. Damn~ I also dragged myself to my dad’s best ‘jim-bang’s’ place…. Actually, my dad closest friends are already like a family.. so I love them like my own aunts, uncles & siblings…. And congrats to noriza for her engagement… well… da next hot question I had to answer… “kakak, when’s your turn huh??’…..
JACKPOT!!!! I also dun noe when,….. amongst all, my bro was d eldest (he’s married, so he’s escaped!), next would be me… but instead uncle zahar & aunty nonie’s daughter, my dear beautiful sista, noriza got engaged first… well, I’ve not meet my prince of my heart so.. I simply dun nibble a single bit…. To me, all this is has to come naturally and with the blessings from the almighty & of course ma family….! So to all my aunties & uncles, cousins, nieces & nephews…. START SAVING FOR ME HUH!!!!! I’m giving ya the opportunity to save ok!! Hahahahahahahhahahah~ *lolz*

My beloved niece is at home…. So we all rushed back just to spent time with her… bro & sis had left for some errands and lil ms dhiya qistina is at my crib all day long.. well she’s my precious diamond & our family heartthrob…. She’s adorable and intelligent… and not forgetting chubby too… just like her drop it like it’s hot aunty….!!! Hahahahahahahah~ yah right~!!!!

Alrighty…. I’ve gotta get out of here now… daddy’s turn to use his pc…. So hahahahahahahha!!! Bet cha see me soon yeah… hopefully by then, I’m feeling so much better and of course…… insyaallah!
Psssttt: I miss him, but I hope he had me saved in some parts of his heart thou… and to my dear lady myra… she’s down with fever too… (see, our heart’s beats like telepathy huh!!) get well soon babey… missing ya tremendously too dearie!!! *MUACKS*

Psssttttt: To all the women on this planet called earth and to my momma……. I love you loads…..!!

HAPPY MOTHER’s DAY!!!!!!!! Mummy, I love you……

2007-05-09T11:02:00.000+08:00

~PeaCe Be Upon You~

Waddup People.... It's the 9th day in the month of May... In year 2007.....
And guess wad??! It's been a long long time since I last blog. Then again, all this explains why huh?! Told cha i'm not really a Blogger thou' but I'll try to do it as frequent as i can right now aittes... Is dat a promise? Nah, not really, It's just that I'm trying to be as faithful as I could towards my blog aittes... Hahahahaha!

For a start, lemme tell you that 2007 had begun with so much love and blessings that I can never ask for more.. With great career beginning, to a much better career ahead, to quality time spent with family and hommies, to my short get a way trip, a loads of fun with ol' pals and not forgetting to the hiccups along the way... Believe me, i'm just grateful for them... And I believe if it doesn't kills me, it will only shape me to be a better person on the overall.... Right peeps?!

Wad else can I say now... To much things to catch up with still.... But anyhow, i'll just try to keep my blog posted of the latest in my well-being thou...! HEHEHE!! And... just to keep ya peeps posted, i'm actively back invovled in scribbling rhymes these days... So I guess moi blog will the the venue for all the rhymes aittes!

CAUTION: Whadeva i write, type, scribble or nibble, are the values i preech. Be it based on fiction or reality, i would sincerely appreciate if you just read it. For those whom are uneducate with the origins of blogging, i think you've gotta take a step back and start doing some research for da matter of facts. For those whom have read and commented, thank you!

2006-10-13T14:12:00.000+08:00

sUpEr swEEt mE..

2006-09-11T13:36:00.000+08:00

PeOple.... *Peace Be Upon You*

It has been a long.. long.. time since I last bloGGed... Like i've said, I truly not in a favour of Blogging but den... thanks to ma pal.. Mr 'Ijad - Boy'.. I'm doing this for his sake... Harhar!!! Oi BadiGolZ, ya owe me one dinner ok dude.. But wait.. I think to be very exact huh, u owe me 2 or 3 dinnErs plus a foot spa session ritte?? Better not get under mY sleeVes again yeah dude... I'll stripped ya *tuuttt* off before you could even know it!! Hehehe!!

WeLL.. Since i'm here... I would like to apologised to friends that i've been neglecting for some time already... A sincere apology from a me to ya ladies & gentleman aittes.. Been held up with work & my life boi~ Sigh~!! And I ought to thanked those people, especially my beloved galfren, lover, sister, companion and leSZ Babey; Ms Myra, for being all along with me during ma "recuperating" period.. I could have never done it and got it over with, without much "screaming", confidente', nagging & bragging, words of wisdom and 'dissed'-doM (is there such a word btw??!), a shoulder to cry on, a listening ear to my grieveances from her.. She can really be a pain in ma neck.. But she is also a lady whom I seriously couldn't imagine living without...
My momma, dad, bro & sisters.. They could hear me screaming in tears deep within, they knew what I'm facing, they knew it was ma fault and part of it to be blamed upon myself solely.. they knew that they are sumtimes adding more tearS to my eyes.. But at the end of the day, they knew their lil gal is gonna be fine and alright! I may be physically & emotionally in a wrecked for all ya noe., but deep in their lil' gal's heart, they knew that I'm as hard and solid as a rock and despite being vulnarable, I moved on with a gusto and it's just in my ghetto!! I LOVE THEM WITH MY ENTIRE LIFE~~ *muacks*

Lastly.... TO every sole whom have made it possible for me to preech my freedom out of ma lungs, made my day, made me laugh & smile... Thank You... To SoleS that brought tears to my innocent's eyes.. Thank You... And TO ALL!!! May peace be upon ya too... (",)

2006-03-08T15:26:00.000+08:00

At Lastt~~~

After much hesistation..... I was being forced by my dear galfren to create a BLOG of my own.... Gosh~~~
Anyways... thanks arr for making it reaL for me... Am so not into a BLOG person boi~ But Heck arr!!! Who CaRes riittee??????

May I extend my gratitude and welcome you fellaz to my sincere, sinful, soulful and most of it, my sophisticated blog page.......

~May you find the truth that lies deep in my eyes~
~May you find tranquility viewing my blog~
~May you be placed amongst the choosen ONES by the Al Mighty~
~May the days of our lives filled with love rather than hatred~
~May those BIARCHES & JERKS find thier path soon~
~May those whom believe in GOD, noes the meaning of TRUE FEARS~
~May the ALMIGHTY blessed our lives~